A Slow Recovery - Sanegiyuu

29 - Was it all a joke?

3rd person pov:

The door was slammed opened, it almost fell off its hinges due to the brute force applied on it.

"Giyuu!" Sanemi shouted, rushing past the former water hashira, not bothering to apologise when he accidentally bumped into him.

"Yuu! Hey, hey, its okay, its okay now babe. I'm here" the wind hashira whispered, he sat beside giyuu and pulled him onto his lap, rocking him gentily as he rubbed circles on the latter's back.

"Nemi.." giyuu mumbled.

"Its okay yuu, I'm here" sanemi pressed his lover's face into the crook of his neck and whispered sweet nothings into his year. When the ravenette was much more stable, the wind hashira breath a sigh of relief.

"Its okay baby, I'm here. Everything's alright"

"W-why did you come h-ere?" Giyuu sniffled.

"I heard from shinobu that some fucker came here" sanemi growled, glaring at urokodaki. The elder flinched at the blood lust the wind hashira emitted, he could tell sanemi was itching to kill him but the ravenette was holding him down.

"Are you okay baby?" Sanemi whispered, giyuu nodded and snuggled into the latter's neck.

"Giyuu! Are you okay?" Shinobu asked, she was sweating and panting heavily. She let out a sigh of relief when she saw giyuu in sanemi's arms and rushed to the ravenette's side.

"Giyuu, let me check on you" shinobu softly spoke, the brunet slipped out of sanemi's lap and obediently sat on the bed. Sanemi smiled and patted giyuu's head. He stomped towards the elder, hostility and hatred seeped out of him. He picked up the former hashira by his collar and pulled him to his face. Sanemi's tall stature made him appear more intimidating and the anger in his eyes made Urokodaki fear for his life.

"You bitch, you made giyuu cry" sanemi growled, his right hand was itching to grab the sword at his waist.

"H-he deserves it" urokodaki croaked out. Sanemi lost his patience at the elder's words and punched the latter in the stomach. Urokodaki let out a cry of pain when the fist collided with his stomach, the force applied was brutal and he was certain there would be internal bleeding if he was hit again.

"You motherfucker, do you want to die?" Sanemi snarled and punched Urokodaki's stomach once again.

"Wait! Nemi!" Giyuu shouted, barely saving his teacher from sustaining more injuries. The brunet's timing was perfect and sanemi's stopped his fist. The elder looked down and shuddered, if giyuu had been a tad bit late, he was sure he wouldn't be able to eat for the rest of his life.

Giyuu's pov:

"Is something wrong?" Nemi dropped teacher and rushed to my side, cupping my cheeks as he examined me. My heart fluttered at nemi's actions and I smiled.

"I'm okay"

"Do you need anything?"

"Can I talk to urokodaki-san alone?"

I saw sanemi's face drop and worry filled his eyes.

"Yuu, are you sure?"

I nodded.

"But he was an asshole to you"

"I want to talk to him" I said with more determination. I turned to look at teacher, he sat on the ground with his eyes wide open. I didn't know why but my instincts were telling me to have a talk with urokodaki-san and it was bothering me a lot.

"Don't you want to kill him?"

"What? No!" I replied in disbelief, "I only want to talk to him you idiot"

"Yuu, he made you cry, he was being a bitch and called you horrible things, are you sure you want to talk with him?"

"Yes, I want to"

"Babe-"

"Giyuu, are you sure you're okay?" Shinobu interrupted.

"Its okay it you don't want to talk to him, you don't have to"

"Its fine, I want to" I repeated, looking at shinobu in the eye. She got my message and sighed.

"We'll leave you two alone" she said, dragging nemi out of the door with her, "but, if you dare to make giyuu cry again, be ready to have your body fed to demons" shinobu said to teacher before closing the door. I got out of the bed and walked to urokodaki-san, helping him stand up as he clutched his stomach.

"What do you want to talk about?" He pushed me away, creating a distance between us.

"U.. urokodaki-san, did you mean what you said to me just now?"

"Yes, I mean every single word"

"Is it true you hate me?"

"Yes, you're weak and pathetic, who would like you?" Master spoke coldly, my heart stung from teacher's words, I wanted to ask him to leave but my gut keeps telling me to ask teacher one last question. I bit my lip and fiddled with the loose string of my yukata.

"Then, do you..do you really wish that I was dead..?" I mumbled out, I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I was scared to look at teacher but I willed myself to look at him. His eyes were glassy and his breathing was unstable. He took of his mask, revealing his face which I hadn't seen in years.

"Tomioka.."

"Yes..?" I gulped, fearing for the worst possible answer.

"Can I hug you?"teacher whispered. I hesitantly nodded and he pulled me into a strong hug.

"I'm so sorry tomioka, I didn't- no, I never meant any of the horrible things I said, I'm sorry, I was rude"

"T-then why did you say them..?" I asked, voice cracking.

Does this mean master didn't hate me at all? So was all my suffering a lie?

"I..I don't know"

"Then why did you say them? If you didn't mean what you said then why bother telling me you hated me? You left me in pain for years!" I yelled, pushing teacher away, I was mad. I was miserable for years, waking up everyday hurts, and now he's telling me it was all a joke?

"T-tomioka, I'm sorry, I know it was cruel but I- I, I don't know tomioka"

"What about me? Your words hurt me like shit, it haunted me for years, I couldn't even sleep properly because of that you said!"

"I know tomioka, I'm sorry-"

"Sorry isn't going to cut it! I was in pain! Would you have done this to sabito as well?"

"No, I would never"

"Then why did you do it to me?"