Found and Lost

Chapter 13

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING Suggestive Behavior⚠️

"I want you to let me go please" I say gently pushing him.

He just grinned and continued to carry me out of the store and down an alley. I looked around scarred and began softly punching his back.

"L-let me down dazai I don't like this. Please" I whimper.

"Is it because this is similar to what your father did to you?" He says smiling twistedly.

"W-wha how?!" I say before covering my mouth.

"I know everything y/n you don't have to hide. I know what he did. I know your crimes. Intentional or not you murdered him, didn't you?" Dazai said with a more calculated voice.

I looked at him in shock but as i looked back i I noticed we had entered some sort of woods. My heart began to race. Where was he taking me? How did we get to the woods? What is he gonna do to me? Why am I such a coward? I want to leave. I wish to leave. Why am I not gone yet!

" You're ability won't work here. My ability cancels all abilities but my own. You can't escape the normal way what will you do now y/n?" Dazai says his voice laced with sadistic intent.

"D-dazai put me down I-I don't like this" I whimper.

"No I won't be putting you down till we get there. Unless~ you stop me" he says grinning.

My body begins to tremble, and my heart begins to sputter. I glance around and try to grab any nearby trees but he easily pulled me off them. After that I bit his side much to my disgust that seemed to make him happy. I tried to think of other ways, but that would all require strength. I'm far to weak in my current state. Even if i had some strength even then I don't think I could get away.

Memories begin flooding back to my mind as I laid helplessly over dazai's shoulder. Father would do this. He smelled different, but that tone in his voice can't be mistaken. The perverted glint, his grip, my helplessness, the sadistic grin. If he was pretending to be my father he was very good at it. He'd be dead by now if my ability wasn't cancelled out. I wouldn't be here helpless if he wasn't blocking my ability. Was this a test? For what? What did he want from me? Information? A reaction? He's gotten both why won't he let me go?

Tears began to fall down my cheeks and I stared at the ground helplessly. What was next? Would he- like father did? I don't want to go through this again. Not like I have a choice. Whatever he does will it matter. Its just one more night. Maybe I'll find chuuya tommrow. Would he take me in? Protect me? No, we don't know each other well enough. Besides him and dazai. Their relationship seems complicated.

"How do you know chuuya?" I ask my voice lacking emotion.

"he's my husband remember?" He said stiffening slightly.

"Liar, chuuya was very upset when i said that" I said.

"Okay~ fine you caught me~ chuuya's my dog!" He says smiling goofily.

He seemed to be genuinely happy. Not to mention his grip lessened. Talking about chuuya makes dazai feel positive things. He cherishes chuuya in a way i suppose.

"How long have you known him?" I asked curious.

"Hmmn~ that's private~" he says putting a finger to his lips, and tightening his grip.

I sigh and slowly close my eyes. I'm tired, and I'd rather not be awake to find out what will happen. After a while I felt him put me down, and clap his hands. I slowly open my eyes and look at him.

"Hmn~ don't make that face~ you'll remind me of a younger me~" he says pouting.

I just look at him and tilt my head my exspresion devoid of emotion. He frowned and seemed to be genuinely angry now. However I don't know him well enough to tell. He lifted me by my arm and watched my body sag over. He seemed irritated, and grabbed my chin lifting it up as he glowered at me.

"Why? You seem upset dazai. Does the face of giving up upset you that much? Is this not what you wanted? You shouldn't have done this. If you wanted me to fight, and stand my ground you should've considered me more. There's nothing I can do. I'm a coward to the core. Do with me as you please." I say looking at him devoid of emotion.

He scowled and punched me hard in the face. Then he sighed and shook his hand. After he turned to me with a soft exspresion.

"That's all I'll be doing to you. If i did anymore a certain someone would be very upset. However, you really are a coward to the core. I was hoping this would toughen you up. Oh well I suppose, come he's waiting for you to go back to him. I wonder if he'll be happy to see me~" dazai says shrugging.

He then picked me up by my arm and dragged me with him. I stumbled but somehow managed to keep up. We walked for hours down alleys, and woods, big city streets, and traffic. Then we arrived at an amazingly tall building. This is where chuuya lives I was sure as i counted 50 floors.

"Why are we here? I figured you'd take me to my sister" I said looking down shamefully.

"Hm? Why would i take you to her? No offense but your relationship with her is terrible it'll take some time, and honesty from you to fix it." He says before dragging me into the elevator.

I frowned and waited as we went up to the 40th floor. Once we arrived there was a place to the left another on the right. Dazai strolled over dragging me along. Then picked up a spare key in a flower pot and opening the door. I peaked from behind dazai inside the house. Chuuya lay splayed across his red couch. There were two empty bottles of wine beside him. Not to mention the amount of dead cigarettes in the ashtray.

"Ooh chuuuyyyaa~ I brought you a very~ cute gift~ i think you'll love her" he says smiling goofily as he jumped onto the passed out chuuya on the couch.

"Ugh~ dazai if thats you- get off of me! How'd you even get in?!" Chuuya whines sitting up slightly rubbing his head.

"Come on~ you remeber the spare key you gave me years ago~ anyway look a present! Come here my little present" he said waving at me with a soft exspresion.

"oh mhn" I walk over with my head down.

"Huh? Oh?! Y/n where did you go! Do you know how worried i was!? You just dissapeard in this weird light! I thought some ability user kiddnapped you! Ugh- my head" he says falling back onto the couch.

"Come now chuuya~ you'll scare her away again~ that light is her ability isn't it neat?" He says patting chuuya's head.

"s-sorry c-chuuya" I muttered and bowed.

They both looked over at me. Dazai looked at me in disgust, and chuuya gazed at me worriedly. Dazai dosen't seem to like my weak behavior. Chuuya's always worring about me. I'm just a burden I don't want-. My skin began to glow, and before i could fall down my hole dazai grabbed me canceling it.

"Ah?! Oh god" I said startled then sick as the room suddenly whirled around.

What just happened. It felt like my body just got slammed by multiple bodies. Eveything was spinning and there seemed to be a white film over my vision. My body collapsed but was held up by dazai's arm. Then I puked up blood it splattered all over the black rug. Then eveything went black as i felt my eyes roll back.