Found and Lost

Chapter 16

⚠️SA warning/Triggering Topics Ahead⚠️
When I woke up chuuya was gone. I was on his velvet couch with a blanket drapped across me. I smiled and sat up folding the blanket. I walked to the bedroom and sat in front of chuuya's big window. I watched as diffrent clouds passed. Sometimes the world was flat and sometimes the world was in 3D. Part of me thinks I'm dreaming. I've never been able to actually choose my destination. I've never landed in the same place. I sighed trying to figure out how my ability works. I figured it just helped me run away. Last time I just begged to go to somewhere warmer. Chuuya's house or apartment feels comfy like a real home.

I probably shouldn't have told my sister the truth about our father. There's no way she'll accept me now. Who needs hope anyway. I stand and walk away from the window as I tear up. I head to the shower guessing i smelt bad. I let my mind run wild as the cold water from the faucet poured over my body. I shivered and cried. I began scratching my arm till my nails dug through the first layer of my skin. The searing pain snapping me out of it. I  turned off the water and began washing my body and hair. Conditioning my whole hair like father taught me. Then waiting for ten minutes then rinsing. Now putting shampoo only where the roots and scalp was. Waiting for five minutes before rinsing again. Then conditioning the tips of my hair after five more minutes I rinsed my hair and got out. A twenty minute shower is a good way to pass time. It has nothing to do with routine.

⚠️I looked at myself in the mirror and saw my father looking at me. I yelped and ran out of the bathroom. I breathed heavily looking around. I sighed not seeing him anywhere. I went into chuuya's closet and grabbed one of his baggy shirts throwing it over my naked body. It stuck to my skin at some parts but that was fine. I layed a towel floor and flopped onto it dozing off again.

"Y/n~ naughty girl what are you doing?" Someone spoke.

I opened my eyes to see my father standing over me. Terrified I backed away gripping my shirt hiding my body.

"Sleeping on the floor again you'll get sick~ not only that but your hair will be ruined~ come here I'll help ypu comb it out" My father spoke.

"W-why are you here you're supposed to be dead" I stutter.

"Dead? Me? Honey send me away is all you did~ it's alright I'm not mad at you~ However why are you in another man's home in his shirt? Did you already forget? No matter how the people outside treat you. No matter how nice or horrible. You'll always come back to me. While the outside does nothing~" My father says in a honey tone as his hands brush through my hair.

I shiver terrified and back away. Did he not die? He had to! His body was drapped over me. He laid there limp. He was bleeding from his eyes. Mom was screaming sister stared in shock. How? How is he alive? My father caresses my cheek before grabbing my chin.

"N-no! L-Leave me a-alone this isn't r-real" I whimper.

"Honey? Why do you back away? You love me don't you? You don't actually think you're rid of me do you? I'll live on forever in your memory, honey~. Your mind and body will always remeber me~ I'll never truly be gone y/n~" My father mutters in my ear before licking it.

I whimper with my back against the wall. I hold my shirt tight over my body as I tremble. Tears begin welling up as I feel his gaze shift over me. Scanning my very essence. I just want to leave, please take me somewhere safer. Please someone help. Even if this is just a dream or something. There must be someone, just one outside person to wake me from this nightmare.⚠️