Meet me in Paris JenLisa

Cambridge

Lisa

"Oh sht. My head hurts so bad."

My whole apartment was a mess.   I refuse to stay in our dorm because I wanted to be alone and being alone means a whole lot of privacy. 

Yes I'm definitely here in Cambridge and proceeded to Harvard.  My parents must be so proud. 

I'd been so alone for months. I miss her. 

Two of my favorite person was gone months ago.  Still break my hearts btw. 

Do you have that kind of feeling busy all day but still feel lost and empty?

I have those all day. 

Been inducing myself with alcohol. I am in every party and in which btw I am not trying to be famous here but as known to be her ex  which I am looks like a different kind of attention.

This different kind of pain change me. 

Some memories that I hold to keep safe but some of it put me troubles. 

The thought that no one will never go but it was a slam. 

Been swiping a lot of expensive alcohol specially on the times that I am so physically tired and pours whiskey, cry and think of her. 

I lay down at my bed again watching the ceiling.

Questioning myself of how I did get into deep situations.

I miss being happy. Now I'm having a hard time trusting new people coming into my life.

Sometimes I prefer to  be alone than with someone else that couldn't understand the whole situation I'm in to.

Life after her death change me. My way of life and the status I'm having right now.

My classmates saw me as a billionaire's daughter, far from I used to be being simple in Brentwood.

I always excel in my class no matter what they saw in me.

Luxury bags and whatever I used to flex online made me up a little bit of influential person in the campus.

I know it  changed me a lot but I guess I'm so good taking the challenge no one would expect.

After a long day at class vibe in the luxurious bars around here.  Alcohol becomes my one great friend.

Friends? I used to have them before but right now? It's all me.

I checked my phone and my notifications are already blowing. Also I used to have this dating app whenever I get bored.

"Good morning."  I was in shocked because I saw a girl on wearing my t shirt and with her panties still on.

"Wait  who are you? " I ask her

"I'm Julien remember? We met in the bar last night?" She said.

"Oh did we?" I  have no idea how she got in to my apartment.

"No we didn't, you're the only person who knows how to speak French and you offer me to sleep in you apartment because I can't go home due to over drunkenness." She said.

"Oh cool." What a relief.

"Btw I have made you some French breakfast and if you may settle down yourself I have to go work."  My whole vision was totally turning upside down. 

She put her dress on and fix her hair and make up. 

"Thank you. You shouldn't have to make me one."  I sit on the kitchen and the coffee smells so good.