Tease, Toy and Trouble

WHAT?!

I was stuck in a haze I felt numb, people were talking and moving around while I just sat down. I hadn't moved for over an hour. They had caught him my tormentor Mr peters my old English teacher. I was surprised and shocked but things started to click and I was glad he was getting the punishment he deserved.

It was strange to know it was over and I still couldn't believe it. Was it really over or was this all just a trick to lure me into a false sense of security and then pounce and take me away to my worst nightmare.
I started to snap out of it when Ryder moved into the room. I started to feel again and my eyes found his instantly and when he connected his with mine I felt my heart shatter a little more. What was going on why was he giving me this empty look.

He stops in front of me and bends down to my eye level while his hands rest on top of the armrests caging me in. Something flickered in his eyes before he pushed it down and gave me that empty stare again.
For some reason that hurt me and I tried to bury that down. I thought we bonded we almost had sex and almost died why was he being this way! I just didn't understand.

"So Danny told me that it really was him, he was your stalker. He is going to jail after they treat his gunshot wound at the hospital so you will be safe now." I looked at him with suspicion something was up! "But what Ryder? What is coming after the but?"
He smiled at that and I could just kiss him right then and there.
"Well the but is that it's time for me to go back to school." He looked at my puzzled face and let out a deep sigh.
"Bo I'm in college already I'm 22 and I was hired to be your bodyguard and now that your going to be safe I'm not needed and I'm going back to school."

To say that I was shocked was a understatement but I could feel anger bubble up in my gut. "So let me get this straight you are my 22 year old bodyguard pretending to be a teenager and trying to get in my pants. Well that's just great and amazing." I looked up and was shocked at the anger in his eyes. Why was he pissed I wasn't the one that lied and tricked someone into having sex with them.

"Bo I was hired by Danny because I looked young enough. I returned a favor and now I'm done and going back." I was beyond pissed now. A favor a fūcking favor! Seducing me was a favor!

"With all the half truths and lies I have a few questions let me start with the first one! Is Danny even your cousin or is that all part of your character!" He looked surprised by the angry undertone in my voice but I really couldn't care anymore.

"Was trying to seduce me and getting in my pants also part of your character. Did you get paid extra for that favor!" He looked pissed again but I can't say I cared.

I pushed him away but he wouldn't budge. "Let me go, right now!" I hissed into his face. "No, I need you to hear me out Bo!" How dare he ask me to listen to more of his bull! So I did the only thing I thought of. I smacked him in his face and jumped over the back of the chair before walking out of the room. After I left the room and left shocked people behind I ran, I ran so fast I was surprised I made it to my room in one piece.

I slammed the door shut and locked it and no more then ten seconds after that I saw the doorknob moving and then a loud slam against the wood.

"Bo let me in! You don't understand.." Well I was done listening to more of his lies.
"Just stop with the lies Ryder if that is even your name. Just leave me alone! You fulfilled your favor! You should be proud, sorry you couldn't finish your lie by having sex with me. But let's face it, you just used me and now you can go back to your campus sluts and forget about your charity case!" I felt tears burn behind my eyes and my throat started to burn with un-shed emotions. I was mad, hurt and felt disgusting like a used tissue.

I couldn't believe I had been this stupid to fall into a trap. He was lucky I was eighteen or else. Who was I kidding of course he took advantage of it. How could I have been so stupid to fall for his crap. I hated myself for allowing him in, for making me feel something, anything. For trusting him! He saw me at my worst and protected me and now I find out I'm just a favor!

I was knocked out of my mental struggle by another loud bang on the door. The entire frame was vibrating. It scared me, he scared me. I felt to vulnerable and I needed him to leave. I hid in a corner and clutched my hair in my hands and started to breath in and out. Trying to calm the raging storm of emotions inside of me.

"BO JUST OPEN THE DOOR! Please Bo. It's not what you think! Your not a favor not to me! It wasn't suppose to happen! It wasn't suppose to go this far. I'm sorry." And then it was quiet. The silence was haunting me and I wanted to hide away forever.

I knew he was gone and I knew I might never see him again. I prayed to god I wouldn't see him again because I knew it would hurt to much. He had done what nobody had done before. He got to me, he crawled underneath my skin and now I wanted him gone, erased and forgotten but it was going to be hard.

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I had taken one day to cry and be mad and then I stuffed it all down and went back to school to finish up my senior year and get out of this hell hol to start over.

School sucked, everyone wanted to know where Ryder went and figured they should ask me. So I just ignored them all or told them I didn't know. Then I just snapped and people left me alone. Apparently I had a crazy glint in my eye every time someone brought him up.

Ava ignored me and decided I wasn't worthy to be her friend so she decided to hang out with the popular crowed and leave me out of her life. I can't say I cared. She chose this route so I let her. The only time I almost killed her was when my personal business was blasted around school on how I almost killed my old best friend by handing her over to my stalker. Like I was the one that gave her to him. I knew they had it from her so I gave her a piece of my mind and my fist.

After Trevor heard what happened he was disgusted with Ava and dropped her all together. He had hoped we would make up since Ava was being ridiculous but after this he knew it would never happen. She crossed a line and that could not be fixed and he got that. So it was just him and me and I was fine with that.

I got more secluded towards the end of the school year and I couldn't wait until I was out of this town and into college where nobody would know who I was and I could start over without all the drama. I still talked to Trevor but I knew he and I were growing apart. I was sad about it but I knew it was for the best.

When I graduated I left right after the ceremony. I got a picture with Trevor but that was it. I went to a house where I was all alone and packed up my stuff and I went to my new home all the way on the other side of the country. I would stay there until college would start and I would build a new life for myself.

I felt ready for change and I couldn't wait to start although in the back of my mind Ryder would still pop up now and then and I would try my hardest to push him away. But he was always there waiting to invade my mind and fill it with what ifs. And I hated every minute of it because sometimes I wished the what ifs could be true.