Life was always unfair for Kamora until she meet Amarion. After he came into her life everything changed, from her momma and dad to everyone at school and new found friends. Amarion was the best thing that could ever happen to her. But Amarions secr...
"Hey baby" Ms. Howard Nia and Bud mom said as I came in with some more of her get well gifts
"Heyy, you feeling better" I asked and she took a deep breath
"As good as I can be, where your brother and sister" she asked and I shrugged
"Prolly with Amarion" I said sitting next to her
"Ok I have a serious question" she asked and I turned all my full attention to her
"Na I need you to be honest... do you still have feelings for Amarion because I know as much as you want to be a good big sister if your not over him it's hard seeing him with her" she said and I was stuck
I really didn't know what to say, it was hard seeing Amarion with somebody else the way he used to be with me at first
Is this how he felt about me and Kayden?
"You said honest right" I said as I got comfortable in the chair and she nodded
"I really don't know, but if Nia is happy I'm happy and if they're happy together I'll be ok" I said and she smiled
"You are too kind hearted for this world even through all the bad things you've been through, now my next question. Do you think you are in love with Kayden or was he just there in a time of need causing you to have an adaption or confided in him rather" she said
"Oh your good" I said and we laughed
"We'll my advice to you is your young and you'll figure it out but don't lead them both on while you do it or it'll hurt you in the long run. Be straight up and let them know you need time for you" she said and I nodded
"Thank you" I said giving her a hug before grabbing my things
I needed her words of encouragement and to have that conversation as hard as it might have been
She's right if I'm still in love with Amarion it isn't fair to Kayden
"Oh one more thing, no matter how much you might dislike your...sperm donor. I think it might be best if you actually go talk to him" she said as I walked out the door
Why would I need to talk to him? He's the reason I've had the fucked up life I've had and the reason I got the fucked up relationships I have now.
I start my car and start driving before I know it I end up inside the jail visitation area
As I'm waiting around I see my dad come out in a white tee some grey sweats and what looked like house shoes
He look just like bud it's crazy how similar they are
"Finally came to visit, I was wondering when you'd come see me" he said with a smirk on his face
He been locked up for almost a month and I still have yet to come see him
"So you knew about me" I asked snapping out of my thoughts
"As much as to momma tried to hide and run, I always knew everything where she lived who she was with where. I got eyes everywhere" he said sitting back crossing his arms
"So why not come visit or at least let me be apart of your life" I asked and he shrugged before being silent
"Cut t bs, I'm 18 and you to grown to sugar shit now after everything you've done" I said and he shook his head in like a proud way
"Truth...she looked happy and I ain wanna mess up your better life, Or expose you to the things that my other kids were exposed to. It was my way of protecting you and myself inna way i guess" he said and I could tell it was genuine
"So why keep drinking after she left, especially after having kids with Momma D" I asked and he looked down
"I was suffering and as much as I wanted to drinking was my only escape, truthfully I wanted to come here to better myself for you and your brother and sister. Just couldn't do it on my own at home" he replied back
After a few moments of talking with him and getting to know him a hour passes by and I decide to leave
Before leaving I give him a hug, we both had got the closure we needed and even if I never got to know him I am proud to see him not drinking at least _______
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Shit been crazy lately and I really just needa be alone and just think
Sometimes I hate being in my thoughts cause ts depressing but rn I needa reflect on life and myself before I hurt more people or worse
I drive to a park my mom used to take me to and go to one of my favorite spots
It's a little isolated bench right outside of the fenced playground
As I walk up I noticed Kamora sitting there in a daze
"My bad, ain know you still came here" I said getting ready to walk away
"You good, and why wouldn't I come here" she asked with a confused look
I took a seat leaving some room in between us "cause" I shrugged
"Cause what?" She asked turning to me
"It was one of our spots" i said and she laughed
"Amarion just because we broke up doesn't me the thing we introduced to the other person belongs to us, I just needed some time alone and this was the first place I could think of"
"True true" I said
"So what's bothering you" she asked and I chuckled
First I hesitate to tell her but I'll always give in when it comes to here
"You, Nia, work or the streets as you like to say, and me being stupid and not going to college" I said and she smiled while nodding her head
"Fuck is you nodding for"
"Mean you not going to college is stupid"
"Don't get beat up cuh" I said and she laugh holding her hands in the defense position
"Alright truth" she asked and I got comfortable before looking at her
"I don't know if I'm over you, and I definitely don't know if I even really want Kayden or if we just bonded by our dislike of you" she said
"You being fr" I asked and she nodded
"Momma D told me to figure my shit out and be honest so that's what I'm doing"
"You told Kayden yet?" I asked as I stood and she shook her head no
"Tell me what" Kayden asked as he walked up
"Yea that's my Que, see you around" I said before leaving ________ Thoughts?
