Change of Heart

Ruined?-7

Even though I'm used to guys I like liking my friends and my friends going for the guys I like, I couldn't be mad at Meghan. I went out with a super sweet guy and I'm happy with how things are going.

I looked at Meghan more exited than she was and started yelling; in an excited way, questions about her and Michael.

"Soooo tell me what happened with you and Michael?!"

"Do you guys like each other now?!"

"omg was he a good kisser??"

"When's the wedding?! Can I be the maid of honor?!"

Meghan laughed at all my questions and looked down at the ground nervously and said, "So I'm guessing you aren't mad at me for kissing a guy you might have feelings for?"

"Meghan how could I be mad at you, if you guys hit it off and you like him then there's nothing I can do about it. You're my best friend and I love you!"

Meghan looked a little bit confused still but soon came to the realization that something good must have happened between Luke and I because she started asking all the same questions I asked her.

After explaining to each other how our nights went we decided to get some sleep.

Before I fell asleep I started writing in a journal I have to remind myself of all the good things in my life because I tend to think negatively very often. I don't see myself as being someone who is pretty or awesome and I struggle with issues that not many people know about. I write them in my journal before I go to bed to get them all off my chest.

Tonight was different, I actually had all positive things to say. The only times I actually have positive things to say is when I'm able to get free food...wait make that free anything.

I started to write what I was feeling:

Dear whoever really cares:

Today I went on a date, yes a real date with a real boy. It was amazing and I had the best time of my life! The whole time I wasn't worried if I'd do anything stupid or make a fool out of myself, I felt completing comfortable with who I am. It feels really good to feel this way. Even though I'm not sure how things will go I am positive things will start looking up for me.

**Morning**

"GOOD MORNING SOPHIA!! WAKE UP AND GET SOME FOOD" I hear Meghan yell at me.

"Meghan go away! You know I'm not a morning person" I say while throwing my pillow at her.

"I'm going to make myself breakfast and head home. Text me when you're awake so we can do something later when you're not being a cranky asshole, love you!" Meghan says while running out of my room.

**2 hours later**

I finally decided to get up and try to start my day with a positive attitude. I went downstairs to get some food that my Dad made earlier and ate way more then I should have. I had a nice talk about UFO's with my Dad, yes my Dad is weirdly obsessed with UFO's and aliens and I don't know why. After our weird yet interesting conversation I went to my room to shower and laid in my bed in my towel for a good hour before getting dressed.

I throw on a white t-shirt, black shorts and my white converse to stay comfy. I put my hair up in a half up half down Ariana Grande look and put on some light makeup.

Luke hasn't texted me yet and I'm not sure if he's just not that into me or if he's busy practicing with his band. Luke and his friends practice almost everyday and I guess they are pretty good from what my cousin tells me. They seem to be pretty busy "banding" and stuff so I'm not sure if there's more to the whole band thing or not.