Dear Santa

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December 22

Santa,

Do I like Cryz or not?

Do I?

Or I was just attracted to her?

What Ali and Khris said earlier made me rethink everything I did these past few days and looking back, I was really with Cryz most of the time. So what? What if I'm with her? That doesn't mean I like her? Attracted? Oh, come on. Cryz is pretty. Pretty smart, too. I remember our report in Gen Chem before vacation. Nailed it. She nailed it. I prepared for it, yes, but seeing her explain everything (even if it sounds like she was forced, haha) is such a pretty sight. But going back, and reflecting to the things I've done and I've said, I've come to realize that maybe, maybe I do like her. Not a crush. Not attraction. Maybe I do like her.

But I've read in books that when you like someone, your heart beats so fast and you became nervous. I don't know. Khris and Ali didn't tell me about experiencing these symptoms. And the thing is, I don't feel any of it. When I'm with Cryz, it felt like everything was okay, and nice. That's why I always wanted to be with her. Because it felt like I didn't have to worry about anything or anyone.

It's making me confuse. Do I like her or not?

Kai