First Midnight (COMPLETED)

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Hindi na ako babalik sa GMA. I don't want to see him. I don't want to hear anything from him kasi baka pag nangyari yung mga ayaw ko ay bumalik ako sa kaniya.

"You choose, Hershey." Sambit ng director habang iniikutan ako. "Sign this or I'll wreck you and your dreams."

Natameme nalang ako sa kawalan habang nasa harapan ko ang panibagong two years contract. I want to say no but I know I can't. Pero hanggang college nalang to at sabi nila ay hindi na nila ako guguluhin.

I hope so.

Yung totoo hindi ako naniniwala doon but if ever mangyari iyon. I'll sue them. I never told to my parents what happened but this time siguro hindi na ako magdadalawang isip.

I look at my picture with Gabriel. We both look so happy. The same time I was listening to Taylor Swift's midnight rain. So relatable.

He was sunshine, I was midnight rain. He wanted a comfortable, I wanted that pain. He wanted a bride, I was making my own name. Chasing my fame.

The fame that I've been wanting and dreaming. The fame that I always love. Nandito na ako sa spot kung saan nakukuha ko na ang lahat pero yung lalaking mahal ko hindi ko magawang mahalin.

But what can I do? I choose this dream over him.

"Hey, dad." Sagot ko sa tawag ni dad. Medyo nakainom na ako it's already 30 of December. I can't believe how fast the night.

"Go home this New Year." Malamig na sambit ni daddy. "Last new year here, I guess?"

"Dad,"

Napahinga nalang ako ng malalim at hinagod ang ulo ko. Yeah, that's my plan. Cause' I don't really want to see him anymore. Maybe, this is the last time I will see him but…

I can't anymore.

I need to stop myself chasing him cause there's more important than him. May mas mahalagang ichase bukod sa kaniya na mas mahalaga ang pangarap na ginagawa ako ngayon. Na binibigay ko ang lahat.

And the last time I saw him was him walking again on the aisle with his Goddamn confidence holding the same candle.

"I'm sorry for choosing dreams over you, my love." Sambit ko sa sarili ko.

I am very proud of him, still enjoying everything even if I hurt him. I heard that he refused to spend the New Year's Eve with us and I can't blame him…

If he doesn't want to see me, I can't blame him.