Hope chase already forgotten what happened last week,di ko parin tanggap and I'm still guilty about what happened to us. What about marco? Did you cheat? That's the questions pop up inside my head that i always think everyday.
"Love i gotta go,may shoot pa kami nila ano e-"
"Chase? Your ex?"he ask unemotionally
"Y-yes..."i said with a shaky voice "but its only 3 days"
"Yeah,i understand"he said still emotionless
I know he was jealous but this was a deal,if I don't do it then it'll spill out what happened to us. I don't want him to be hurted because of my bad act.
[I'll pick you up,where are you?]chase ask in the other line
[Dito sa may bench na iniistayhan ko]i said
[Okay im coming]he said then hung up
I waited then he came,he opened the door but then he saw marco with me. He stared at him and nod. There's a tension between the two of them.
"Don't worry par, I'll take good care of your girlfriend"chase said teasing marco
"Love,mag s-stay lang muna ako sa condo nyo doon sa ate mo. I wanna see kiara"marco said before kissing my forehead
When i sat inside the car,i could see Marco's eyes on us. But chase held my hand so i could calm myself.
3 days...its only Three days ashtherielle,you can do this.
"San ba tayo pupunta?"i ask
"You'll see"he smiled
We stop at the amusement park. I thought it was shooting but why is it here?
"I thought-"
"Shhhh"he hush me "i don't wanna exhaust you,i just wanna go back to our memories here."he said
The memory back,it all back. The time he ask me out,my first time of street foods,us having fun it back. And later on,my eyes slowly forming a tears. Little did i know i was crying,why would i cry in this fucking dump memory?
"You alright?"he ask tapping my shoulder
"Yes,sinisipon lang"i chuckle. I don't want him to know that im still into him you know. And besides,3 days.. three days,i can do it.
“uh chase..."i said scratching my head "pwede mo ba akong samahan?"
"Where?"he ask
Sumakay na kami sa kotse niya, i made him stop to a bakery for me to buy cake, goldilocks cake. Then i bought bouquet of red roses with candles.
"Punta tayo cemetery"i said when i get back my seat
When we got there i quickly walk to my mom's grave. It has been a month since i lost her. I miss her so much, she's just the only person who understand me even dad. Now i can't see dad's happy side cause he was horrible right now.
"We miss you mom,happy birthday"i said wiping off some dirts on her grave and put the roses and the cake on
I cut the cake and put the one slice on mom,chsse is just watching me.
"Come"i said
He slowly walk by and sat beside me. Dad is gonna come later or maybe he was early to come here.
Suddenly,i felt a heavy pain in my heart. The pain that i never felt before when mom is around. My tears were flowing down my cheeks,chase wipe it but i couldn't stop it. I miss my mother,my only mother.
"Ma, you know that i always keep my self on to travel and be busy not to be the worst but ma, i'm trying my best to forget you. Not permanently just temporary, I jus wanna ease the pain inside me. I'm sorry for my imperfect ma when you were around me. I miss you,if only you could go back from the time we're happy."i said sniffing counting my breath,i was weak. My other,the memories,the love,the opportunity i lost it. I miss her. Why when i needed her the most she just disappear?
"Happy birthday tita,you know your daughter do best in her academics and also as a girlfriend to his boyfriend marco."chase said "your daughter's great!"
I just smiled,my day 1 in chase challenge,all I wanted to spend my time is to be in here. Beside her. I know chase would understand, he's that kind of person right?
Suddenly there's a car park beside on us. It was dad,he brought gift, flowers and a guitar. Hmmm I don't know that dad do harana when mom's birthday.
"Sweetie,andito pala kayo ng boyfriend mo. How's your mother?"dad ask
"Hes not my boyfriend pa"
"Im not he's boyfriend po tito."we both said
"Oh,i see..if you please bigyan nyo kami ng space ng mama mo"dad said with a fake smile. He's lips is so much in joy but he's eyes,you can read that grief and the pain inside him.
“i wanna live with you,even though we're ghost. Cause you're always there for me when i need you the most....."dad sang "hon,even though you're no longer exixtance in thid place,you still exist in my heart. It always will,i will promise that even death couldn't set us apart. It's hard for me that you give up and rest but I don't you too suffer from your illness."dad said crying
I hug him in the back,i felt him. He's crying so hard so i hugged him so tight like a teddy bear,and then chase held my hand and smiled. He know.
After we left chase hug dad,he said he'll go back home later but not now muna so we go first.
"Are you okay?"he ask, concerned
"Yes,im always okay"i replied
"No you're not,i feel you. Loosing someone you love is so hard"he said "my favorite cousin died when i was a kid"
He drove me home and i ran through the elevator to rest myself up. I'm so tired.
Hmmm kamusta na kaya si marco?
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Chasing The Tomorrow(Editing)
RomanceAshtherielle grown up in us with her family. One day her dad decided to transfer her on Philippines to studied drama degree but she doesn't want to. With a respect to her parents she reluctantly agreed to it. She met a guy that opposite of her idea...
