Life has been tough when your director and co-artist are american and Espanol,nasanay narin kase ako sa Pilipinas and I've been very fluent in their language.
Today is another day of hardwork. I knew this day was gonnna be exhausting as yesterday.
“wake up— oh aga mo naman nagising, miracle?”chase ask
“well"i smiled proudly"i change"
“wow, I didn't know that my words could probably change you"he smirked
I rolled my eyes at him. I felt comfortable when i'm with him and I really don't think that's a good idea.
The make up artist fix me and Hana in the make up room. Tommorow kase has no work since it was direk birthday and also our break,medjo exhausted narin mga casts eh except for me.
“you didn't rush today”Hana said “what motivates you to wake up early?"
“nothing."i said "sometimes i just found myself waking early, feels like a good mood have been strike me"
"Oh well"she said "tara na at baka masermonan ulit tayo ni direk"
We got out together at the room and chase,shawn and other casts are wsiting for us. This is the center of the movie narin kase eh and malapit na naming matapos ito maybe onto 7 or 5 months.
“wow, blooming”shawn said “and your partner is gorgeous"
Hana smiled shyly as i glared at Shawn badly. He just shrugged and smiled at me.
“are you inlove with herr???"i smirked as a elbowed him
“n-no”he denied
"Sus,reason"i said
"Okay fine. Just don't tell this to her okay?"he said
"One condition"
"No more condition. Sabihin kopa kay Chase na mahal mo pa siya"he threat
I point my middle finger at him,he just laugh sarcasticly and waved a teasing bye.
“subukan mo Shawn at mapapatay kita!!"i screamed
He stick his tongue and made a face out of me. He's like a kid annoying someone elder.
Before i could chase after him,direk called us to get back to work. My mood was now finally ruined! Im not inlove at chase. Never. I won't let my tears flow back onto my cheeks on the same guy neither other.
The shoot ended at night. Without any rest or any break because indeed na matagal tagal tong movie nato and i really felt exhausted today. I wanna go to sleep na but i don't want to. So later that night i went to the pool area to have a peace of mind. It was starry night, I watch the stars shining at the sky. It was really beautiful as i glanced at them with the beautiful light of the moon,its an eclipse. Lunar eclipse. Were moon and son collided to each other. It was magical.
“couldn't sleep?"chase ask
He sat beside me. We watched the eclipse and
stars spark that night. I want to leave but there's this feeling that don't want me to leave.
“remember the day the first time you met hana?”he started
I look at him with no response. Was he going to glimpse me back the painful memory I've been through?
“the day you said luna and sol barely met at each other"he said
"Yes why?"i ask
“its the day"he smiled
"What di you mean?"i ask
“i mean... They met again,today. Look”he said pointing out the sky “beautiful right?"
“yeah,and?”i ask
“rielle... you're my moon since before. You're the light of me,the spark at me when i felt dark. And until today,you still do"he said "rielle i love you... I know i made a mistake and it did badly hurt you,i admit that...you couldn't forgave me instantly and I didn't ask for your forgiveness or for you to love me back,i just wanna tell you this and I'll promise I'll wait for you. Winter,summer, spring,autumn and fall what season it does I'll wait”
“Chasd,i already forgave you and Hana. I didn't hated you either her,i just respected your decision that day. And for that confession.... I really don't think that I'm ready to be with someone who hurted me in my past"i said
He look at me with a teary eyes,i know i hurted his feelings but the world doesn't turned on him. I just need to care for my feelings too. Im not gonna sacrifice my happiness for him. I love the version of ne today,not the miserable one and i don't wanna end up back to that girl who always beg for a man that hurt her. Enough is enough. I can live my life without a man. Im a woman not a girl,i know my worth and i take care of it.
"Let's watch the eclipse nalang. You have your phone?"i ask changing the topic
"Yes,uhhh here"he said wiping he's tears
I took a picture if the eclipse both of our phone. It so good and beautiful. I really wanted this moment before to be me and chase watching them and it did really happened. With a consequence of course.
“next month are you going to Philippines?"he ask
"Of course, may shoot doon diba?"i said
"Yeah,so see you ulit doon"he chuckles
After tue eclipse had ended,i went back inside and go back to sleep. I was rolling in my bedroom thinking of to something. Did i do the right thing? Did i get the correct answer to hid question? Was i gonna regret it?
I was overthinking and i couldn't get back to sleep. Thinking if i choose the right decision. The right path. What heart says is opposite in my brain. Should i choose my heart or my brain? Cause i knew i really love him indeedly.
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What would you choose between the two?
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Chasing The Tomorrow(Editing)
RomanceAshtherielle grown up in us with her family. One day her dad decided to transfer her on Philippines to studied drama degree but she doesn't want to. With a respect to her parents she reluctantly agreed to it. She met a guy that opposite of her idea...
