Direct And Linear Relationships

Chapter 19: Blue Balls

I stood in the elevator and watched as the doors closed, gripping my helmet tightly in one hand then I pressed her number signaling it to move. My body buzzed with nerves as I wondered how this was going to go. In class Sana didn’t pay much attention to me which was to be expected after my outburst. Practice went as well as it could have gone with a swollen cheek and eye. Coach Hwang had me sitting out a lot to ice my face then when I got home to see my parents, let’s just say they were not too happy with me. As I sat there holding a bag of frozen peas to my face I listened to them rant and rave about how violence is never the answer. The only way I could get out of the house was to lie and tell them that Jennie asked me to come over and help her study with the possibility of dinner, to give myself some extra time.

Finally the said yes but with the “we’re having a serious talk when you get home” comment following after it. The elevator came to a stop and the doors opened showing me my impending doom. Stepping out, I walked down her short hallway, pausing before I knocked on the door. Today I brought my own sweats and had on the same long sleeve shirt I was wearing to school so I wouldn’t have to rely on Sana's. With a deep breath I softly knocked on the door.

Nothing came from inside her apartment. Hmm, I know she’s here, I saw her car as I parked my bike. I began to tap my leg as I waited patiently for her. 5 minutes passed and I was about to knock again before the door unlocked and drifted open but she was not there. Pushing it open a little more with the tip of fingers I saw Sana walking off to the kitchen without so much as a hello.

Um, okay...yeah still in trouble.

Softly I shut the door, placed my helmet on the floor and took off my boots. Shifting my arms behind my back I clasped my hands together and stood there silently. Sana has yet to even acknowledge my existent and I don’t know what to do from here. Is she going to give me a signal? My eyes focused on her as she dipped a spoon in her cup and stirred. The steam rose and she took a deep breath, inhaling the smell.

Sana took it out and placed the spoon in the sink then grabbed the cup and started to climb her spiral staircase. Does this mean I follow? Probably, yes, move your fucking feet. Not seeming too eager, I followed her up the stairs and streams of sunlight fluttered through trees as it bounced off the walls. Yeah, this view is fucking amazing. Sana opened the door and slipped outside, disappearing from my vision. Like a scared animal I crept outside, finding her sitting with her feet folded under legs as she sipped the drink from her cup. Taking the seat on the opposite side, I let my legs hang off the edge, laced my fingers and twirled my thumbs around one another.

The tension was clear as her eyes stayed staring blankly out into the distance. I couldn’t read why though, so I stopped trying. I keep jumping to conclusions and it only makes things worse. Taking a deep breath, letting my body relax, I took my mind clear of any presumptions and just enjoyed sharing this moment we had.

Even Sana was pissed at me.

“Don’t you dare confront me like that at school again.” her voice was hard when she finally spoke. It wasn’t stern just matter of fact. “And when someone does something nice for you, like cover your ass you say thank you, you don’t cop an attitude.”

Sinking my head down into my shoulders I was hit the remorse for my childish actions of the day.

“That shit where you assume you know what I’m going to say has to stop. You’re going to fuck up our relationship before we get a chance to have one-”

“But-” I said cutting her off. Brown hair flew as she jerked her head to me telling me to shut the fuck up. Snapping my mouth shut I bit my tongue to keep from speaking.

“As I was saying.” voice sharp with annoyance. “Stop doing that. You’ve been wrong almost every time and you know I don’t like when people put words in my mouth. You acted completely immature today Dahyun, and quite frankly I’m pissed about it.”