Direct And Linear Relationships

Chapter 29: Boundaries

“Honestly, I’m not in that big of a rush. Are you?”

Her lips curved up into a smile that’s been lying dormant for quite some time, unable to find a use for itself until now.

“No, not at all.”

Sana's eyes flickered to my lips, she leaned in but I moved back receiving a small frown.

“This doesn’t mean we’re together.” No matter how much I wanted it.

“I know, sorry, it just felt so easy to fall back in routine with you.” and as soon as the words left her mouth I could see it on Sana's face that she regretted it.

“Does that mean you’re going to leave me too?”

Sana scowled when my hands dropped from her face. Taking a step away from her I ran my fingers through my hair. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have-”

“Don’t, it’s fine. I deserved that.”

“No, Sana...I...” I nothing, there is nothing I can say because I don’t feel bad. It’s already hard enough to be this close without her trying to kiss me.

Turning my back to her I stared at the trees and was too busy worrying about my stupid feelings to hear her walk around me. She gave me a bear hug, one that I fought like hell to get out of but her grip tightened.

“Dahyun, I’m sorry.” her voice was full of sorrow and rejection.

“Sana just stop.” I replied, trying to wriggle out of her strong arms.

“Baby, please-” Sana kissed my forehead and I gasped. “I’m sorry-” she kissed my right temple. “-Please-” she kissed my left temple and then one to my cheek. The tingles shot through my body and my firm grasp on reality was fading. Loosening the grip around my body she angled her head down and kissed the side of my mouth. “I’m so sorry.” she whispered, and my lips parted even though my mind screamed ‘NO!’.

“Sana...don’t.” I said with minimal force, moaning once her mouth barely grazed mine. This would be the time where I push her away but I can’t, so I don’t.

And now, I’m fucked. I sucked in a deep breath when her mouth was on mine, kissing me hungrily, urgently. My body, as it normally does, shut down. I can’t think, I can’t move, all I can do is suffocate in this amazing feeling. Her tongue snaked it’s way in my mouth with little struggle, staking it’s claim. Sana's hands moved at a rapid pace before clinging to my waist and pinned her hips to mine. I broke away first but she didn’t waste a second nipping at my neck. My back arched when one of Sana's hands slid to my stomach and crawled up under my shirt to my bra clad breast palming it softly. My hand shot over hers, encouraging Sana to squeeze and a whimper left her in reply. She began to rock her hips against mine while manipulating my breast.

We had to stop. I knew we had to stop. Sana might be too far gone but I’m not...yet.

I dropped my hand from hers and fortified the strength to use my words. “Sana.” I said. Or moaned. It was hard to tell since her tongue was stroking the pulse point on my neck. “Sana.” this time with some force but still she kept licking, biting, and sucking. Taking in another shaky breath I brought my hands up, placed them on her shoulders and pushed her body off of mine. Sana stumbled back, fucking Sana, grace personified. Dark eyes stared at me, uncomprehendingly, as if she didn’t get why I did that.

“I-”

“Don’t.” I said. “Don’t fucking say you’re sorry.” Anger, annoyance, and frustration billowed inside of me. “I tried to get your attention.”