Direct And Linear Relationships

Chapter 12: Fucking Hopeless

“I’ll go by the party store today and grab what you need for the rally tomorrow. Make sure Jungkook has you home by 6.” mom said as I unbuckled my seat belt. I leaned over and kissed her on the cheek then grabbed my bag out the car and smoothed down my clothes. Nodding my head I smiled and she smiled back.

“You look cute today Dahyunie. I’ll send you pictures of everything before I buy it. Make sure you’re phone is charged.” she teased then said I love you and drove off.

I looked around the deserted school and sighed. Mom had to drop me off early today because she had some sort of teacher meeting and dad had left at 4 this morning for his shift. I slung my backpack over my shoulder then began walking towards the bleachers at the football field. The campus itself wasn’t unlocked yet but they always kept the field open. Cutting through the teacher lot I took my time to gaze up at the sky. I watched the whispie clouds move slowly across the pink and purple as the sun drifted higher in the sky.

Making me think of Ms. Minatozaki.

Gently I shook my head and picked up my pace. My mission today was to only talk to her if I had to. I couldn’t be close to her not until I sorted out the roller coaster of emotions I’m having.

A crush.

A stupid little crush.

Something so small is turning me into such a bitch. I’ve had crushes before, why is this one so different? Probably because most of the time I can tell what the person feels for me but with her it’s like hitting a cement wall.

The soft purr of an engine floated to my ears and a glimpse of a white car pulled into the spot I was walking by. I turned my head as the car parked and found Sana leaning her body over to the passenger chair and started digging through something in her front compartment.

She hasn’t seen me yet. Good!

Fucking run.

But my legs felt like lead weighing me down gluing me to my spot. Her eyes glanced up at mine before she turned her head back down then I could see her eyebrows raise and she shot her head back at me.

Great. What do I do now.

I waved at her shyly hoping she would just resume trying to find what she was looking for, of course she didn’t. Her honey colored eyes stared at me then slowly dragged down my body.

Is she checking me out right now?

Nah, she’s just surprised to see me in real clothes

I admit I did plan an outfit out last night, I was telling myself it was because now that I’m part of team of girls who look so amazing on a daily that I should try to not look like a trash bag. I had on some beige joggers with a red long sleeve shirt, the buttons were down hinting the cleavage I had and matching were my black high top converse and my grandpa’s black jet fighter bomber jacket. I’ve literally loved that thing since I could remember I could just never fit into it, but finally with the little bit of muscle I’m now packing it fits like a glove. My hair was just pulled up into a messy high bun because I didn’t really know what else to do with it.

So yea, maybe I did look different but not too much from my normal baggy jeans and a random shirt.

The door to Sana's car opened and she stepped out looking at my breasts with a raised eyebrow.

“Trying to impress somebody today?” she asked.

“No, I just got tired of looking like a paper bag next to my team.”

Her bottom lip sucked in between her teeth as she nodded.

“You never looked like a paper bag Dahyun.” she gently said.