Why him?

I'm dreaming alright

AMANDA'S POV

Okay so now I won't deny anything I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS MAN. I know it's so foolish of me, I'm sure he doesn't feel the same for me.

So what if we kissed. It doesn't prove anything, he could just be doing it for his own pleasure. Gosh it felt so amazing...

Wake up princess!  My inner self said

Well at least I know I'm dreaming alright

      He's always watching over her, and it hurts.

I know I agreed to it, well he only has to take care of her until she gives birth. But it kills me deep down. I don't like seeing them together.

Isabelle seems to make things worse by kissing him every second she sees me. It ravages my heart repeatedly.... I spend most days in my room crying and sleeping, what if he actually loves her and is happy about his new baby? What will I do?

Even so I know my stay is short in this house, just soon after that baby is born. My assistantance will no longer be needed and I'll go start over.

But I don't want to start over, I want to be with him. But Why did it have to be him for Christ's sake. Couldn't it be any other man out there, I've worked with him for 3 years and Nothing ever drew us together.

Well ever since Steve got into my life, I got close to Vegas. It was all official business in the beginning about work and all until it the contract came in.

My life is just a hot mess.

I was in my room for yet another day, Vegas' parents had gone back to Tokyo but Irma and Alex were still around.

I hadn't had anything to eat since morning and I don't think I'd be able to eat anything at all. I was so stressed

Weeks an weeks keep passing and I still don't even get a glimpse of him. *sigh*

Knock knock

Silence

Knock knock

"I don't want to eat please go away" I said thinking it was one of the maids who always bring me food

I really didn't want to face anyone. My face looks pink and my eyes are red from all the crying.

The door slowly opened but my face was turning the other way. I heard foot steps which sounded more like a man's shoes than a petit slipper.

I turned around...

"Why won't you eat?" That husky voice that always gets me biting my lip

People I'm not a perv but I swear his voice is killer as fuck. Ahh let me say the F word for this specific thing.

I failed to utter a word and just gaped at him

"So you won't speak to me either...okay I'll leave" he said as he turned to leave

"No don't leave..." I said with a shaky voice

Yes, I killed my pride for that moment. I missed him I wouldn't let him slip off my hands yet again

He turned around and walked towards my bed as i sat up straight.

"Have you been crying?" He asked slowly and gently caressing my cheeks as he looked into my watery eyes.

I missed those glances we always exchanged, the way he would look into my eyes like he's searching for something.

"It's okay I'm here now" he said pulling my head to his chest