Why him?

Spoke Too Soon

Fire on fire by Sam Smith played on speaker as I slowly sorted my clothes. This Saturday I needed to clear all my chores so that i can get myself a SPA day.
I really neede one, well I definitely do cause i work too hard at least a SPA is a way I can appreciate myself.

I got done and went for a quick bath as i sang along to the music in my room.

I dried up and got my hair up in a loose ponytail and wore the simplest outfit i can find well considering the sunny day.

I applied some lip gloss and sun screen before I grabbed my bag and walked out of my apartment locking the door behind me.

I walked anit ahead to where I can find a cab to take me to one of the best Beauty Parlors in New York. Well I'm sure I can afford to get myself some skin treatment and more.

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I walked through the glass doors as different men and women walked in and out.
I immediately walked up the stairs and entered a SPA salon

"Welcome to Bloom and Glow SPA" a young lady with hazel nut hair said

"Thank you" I said with a smile

"I'm here for a whole package, massages, body scrub, Sauna and every other special treatment that comes along" I said

"Okay right this way Miss" she said and I followed.

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" Irma I thought you said you're on diet" I said as I watched Irma stuff her face with lots of junk food.

"I know but these Tacos are so delicious, I just can't resist" she said

I laughed while shaking my head, well this weekend after my SPA I spent the rest of the day hanging out with Irma. We toured different parts of town and I met a couple of her friends.
Well people she had connections with

And it was awesome, we went for new hair do each of us. My hair feels fresh and all new compared to how annoyingly messy it was that a comb would hardly pass through.

"Soo how's everything between you and Alex" I asked

"We're good but we had a huge argument a week ago but we fixed everything now" she said sipping her vanilla smoothie

"I really love you guys" I said

"How's your new apartment, are you comfortable there?" She asked

"Well yes it's abit too quiet but I like it there" I said letting out a deep breath

"Why don't you just come back to the mansion, it's way better" she said

"I don't belong there Irma, I was just helping out but I don't need to live with Vegas anymore cause the contract ended" I said

" Okay how about you just live with him as you and not pretending to be his wife or anything" she said

I kept silent and looked outside the window

"I'm sorry I just can't. It wouldn't make situations easier for me living with my boss" I said

"C'mon Amanda you do know that you and your boss love each other madly. Why are you trying to ignore the facts" she said

She was right, I do love Vegas alot but I'm just afraid. What if he isn't even being sincere with me about his feelings. I don't think I'm ready to be crashed for the second time.

I really love him so much but I just can't find it in me to tell him or reveal it to him. 
Living with him would make things even worse for me so I'd rather be far away.