You Are My Idol

Chapter VIII

-Jesus! That's why she was with that face when I asked for your number.

-Wait. It was you? That message was yours? – I couldn't believe.

-Yes, I felt bad for you, and I wanted to speak with you. But anyway, let's talk about other things. I saw that you like Korean dramas and music. So do I, what is your favorite K-pop group?

-Well my favorite is X.Verse do you know them? They have been helping me handle all this.

-You got be kidding, they are my favorite too.

We were interrupted by the bell. She accompanied me to the classroom and left. When the school ended, she came to me and we continued talking, I found out that she was crazy about the youngest member of the group, Jeon Wonsuk. Isn't that weird, think of it, I like one of the oldest and I am younger than her while she likes the youngest and it's older than me.

I arrived home and was texting to Thalia, we were talking about a live that the group would make that night.

-Who are you texting? – My mom asked.

-Thalia, she is my new friend at school, and she likes k-drama and k-pop like me. – I was so happy telling my mom, I completely forgot that it was my mom.

-If you focused more in school and less in stupid things, maybe your grades would be better. By the way, your first year of high school is ending, did you already decided which university are you going to choose?

-It's still early mom, I haven't decided yet. I'm going to do my homework. – I said and ran to my room.

I couldn't tell my mom that I didn't want to go to the university, she would kill me. What was I supposed to do? Maybe I should aske Thalia for advice she is in the last year of high school, she must know what to do or how to say. I will ask her tomorrow. Right now, I need to finish my homework if I want to see their live.

After the dinner and helping my mom cleaning the kitchen, I ran to my room and turned on my computer. The live was about to start so I put on my headphones and texted Thalia if she was ready to. It was the first time I could watch a live of them I was excited and nervous at the same time.

Their live started, as I watched it something inside me started to feel different. I locked my eyes on him like usually do when I watch something about them, but this time felt different. He looked so cute his hair was aligned with his eyes in tons of gray, he was wearing casual outfit, blue marine sweat and grey sweatpants. His eyes sparkled during the live, his sweet lips and smile melted my heart. He went through a lot with his friends and finally they were seeing the results of their efforts.

Thalia was sending me texts none stop talking about Jeon Wonsuk, what he was wearing and telling me that he was so cute and all, but my eyes were still locked on him, and every time he looked at the camera it felt like he was looking at me, even though I knew that wasn't true. The live ended and I went to sleep.

I fell asleep fast that night for my surprise, I guess Thalia and their live helped me. But I had the weirdest dream:

"I was in a house, and there were a lot of people dinning together and Thalia was among them. All was mute or at least I couldn't hear they talk. Then suddenly Kim Sungbin was there, he was trying to get to Thalia, but I wouldn't let him, and had this strange feeling inside of me.

He went to a living room, and I followed him, there were the rest of the members and Thalia arrived right after me. They were all sitting on the couch, only me and Thalia were standing. I was looking at him with a sad face and didn't even realize that Thalia was looking at me, until she sent me a text message, made signal to me not to read it but to show to Kim Sungbin, and so I did. He carefully read the message and without hesitation or warning he pulled me to him. I landed right on his lap with my head on his chest. Thalia took the rest of the boys with her, but she was hugging Jeon Wonsuk and he hugged her back.

I stayed still laying in his arms as he petted my hair, suddenly he got up and went to what seemed his office chair in front of a computer. I stayed seated on the couch looking at him. He smiled at me and made me a signal for me to come to him, I went without hesitation. I seated on his lap facing him I smiled and hugged him. Then I fell asleep in his shoulder."

I woke up next morning to the sound of the alarm, I was thinking to myself, what the hell was that I know it was a dream but felt so real. The people, the conversation and his... his touch, I can still feel his touch. I still felt his touch as if I hugged him all night long and he was right next to me. My head was playing tricks on me. I should get ready and go to school or my mom will kill me. Maybe I tell this weird dream t Thalia she will laugh at it for sure.

I prepared my self to go to school, but that weird feeling wouldn't disappear. You know when you do something, and you can have a vivid memory about it? That feeling was like that, it was like I did something last night when I didn't. Or did I?