You Are My Idol

Chapter X

In class I couldn't stop thinking on what happened earlier. Thalia must be feeling so bad because I left without saying a word. I just didn't know what to do or say. If that is really true than that means that Thalia made me dream about him, that she wished for me to be like that with Harper and for me to like Korean culture? No, I always liked different things from others, that was why I was always bullied, but now I don't know. The only thing I know it's that Thalia has been my friend for the past days and she was the only one with I could be myself that she wouldn't judge. So, I had to go talk to her.

The class ended, I left the classroom running towards Thalia's class. When I arrived there everyone was looking at me, and when I say everyone, I mean all of the boys and the three girls that were part of her class (I didn't know she had so much boys in her class), it was weird but then I heard:

-Layla, what are you doing here? Are you okay?

-Thalia! – I opened a big smile. She was worried about me even though I was the one in fault. – I'm fine. I just need to talk with you. Is that okay?

-Of course. What kind of question is that?

We went to the back of the gym where no one could see us.

-I am sorry. I was a little bit confused about all you said to me, and I needed to process everything. But I believe you. I mean you have been the only true friend I have ever had so you wouldn't be lying to me...

-Really? OMG! You don't know how relieved I am right now. – she was so happy that interrupted me. – I thought you would leave and stop being my friend and think that I'm crazy. That's why I don't talk about this to anyone. But for some reason I had a feeling that I could tell you and trust you more than anything.

-Yes, you can. Shoot! It's my aunt that is picking me up from school today I must go. Text me, okay?

-Okay! See you tomorrow.

I said goodbye and run to the front of the school, no surprise my aunt was already there. I excused myself for being late by saying that I forgot something in the classroom. In the car I received a text from Thalia.

-Is that a new boyfriend? – my aunt asked.

-What? No. It's Thalia my friend.

-You two talk so much that someday people can start thinking that you two are not just friends. – I looked at her shocked about what I've just heard.

-What the hell? Are you out of your mind? Can't I have friends now? If I can't talk to boys and I can't talk to girls because it might seem other thing, what the hell should I do? – At this point I didn't measure my words.

-Calm down! We are just having a conversation.

From then I kept quiet, I put my phone on silent and didn't reply to Thalia until I got home, and I was alone. I entered home as usual and went to my room as usual. It didn't take long to my mom burst in my room.

-Layla, your aunt told me that you answered her badly when she gave you her simple opinion. Where did you get this behavior? It's Thalia's influence, isn't it?

-What? It was the aunt who started to assume things where they don't exist. Thalia is a good friend and the only one who understands and helps me. Since here you do not! – Without realizing I was screaming at my mom, something I have never did before.

-Watch your tone young lady!

-Or what? – I interrupted. – You are going to make my life more miserable than it already is? You know what? I don't want to continue studying, I don't want to go to the university. I'm sorry to break your perfect little future.

-What? That's it, you are grounded, no cellphone, no computer, no music and no leaving the house unless it's for school or the piano lessons. If you need the computer for school, you will do your work in front of me. Think about what you just did and spoke.

She got out and slammed the door. I was in tears, with an immense pain in my chest that felt like I was going to die of grief. I finally said what was on my mind and look where it got me, I was trapped in my own house again.

I didn't sleep much that night, but the next morning something even worse happened. My grandfather did not wake up well and we had to call the ambulance to take him. He was in very bad shape and was no longer breathing properly. After they taking him, my father went with him and the rest of did or normal day. Arriving school Thalia was waiting for me at the entrance, I got out of the car with a sad look on my face.

-Good morning. What happen? I texted you a lot of times yesterday, but you didn't reply.

-Hi, I'm sorry. My mom took my phone away and only give it to me this morning to come to school and then I have to give it back to her. An if that wasn't enough, my grandpa was sent to the hospital before I came to school.

-What? Why? - She was shocked hearing all that.

-Let's go inside I tell you everything during the break.

I couldn't concentrate in class, I didn't participate and even the teacher notice that something was wrong with me. In the break Thalia came running towards me.

-I'm here, tell me everything!

I started to tell her everything about yesterday. But then suddenly the reality hit me, really, really hard this time. I received a text from my father, that broke me completely.