Marauders Oneshots (Taylor's version)

🌙The Archer🌙

"Screaming, who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay?"
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Summary:

Sirius feels like he'll never know how to love correctly. James assures him that Remus doesn't care.
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Sirius hadn't left his bed in three days. James had taken him to see Madam Pomfrey thinking he was sick and she told him to stay in his dorms instead of going to class until he felt better. She didn't have to tell Sirius twice.

James had began to worry about him. Not only was he isolating himself from everyone but he refused to talk to Remus at all which was very unlike him. Every time Remus entered the room Sirius said he was going to sleep and turned towards the wall.

James wasn't stupid. He knew Sirius liked Remus and he knew the feelings were mutual. As far as he knew they hadn't had a fight because Remus seemed truly heartbroken every time Sirius would avoid him. Sirius wasn't himself and James wanted to know why.

Peter had asked Remus to help him study in the library. He didn't want to sit in the dorms with the tension between Sirius and Remus hanging over all of their heads. Once they left James moved to sit on the edge of Sirius' bed.

"Pads I know you're awake. Remus left so you don't have to pretend." Sirius groaned and shoved his face in his pillow. He then screamed into it, making James jump.

"Woah what happened. I don't think I've ever seen you this broken up over a fight before."

"We didn't fight." Sirius' voice was muffled by the pillow.

"Well obviously something happened because you're avoiding Remus like the plague. I don't know what he did but he's obviously sorry. He hasn't stopped trying to talk to you since Wednesday." Sirius said something in response but James couldn't hear it due to the pillow his face was still shoved into.

"Mate I can't hear you when you're talking into the pillow." Sirius sat up and James could tell he'd been crying due to the redness of his eyes and the tear stains down his face.

"We kissed" This was not the response James was expecting. Sirius saw his shocked face and fell back onto the pillow, this time with his hands covering his face.

"Don't look at me like you didn't know I liked him. I haven't stopped talking about him since second year."Sirius spoke through his hands

"I knew you liked each other but I thought that would be a good thing. Why are you avoiding him if he feels the same way. If he kissed you he obviously does."

"Because I'm not good enough for him Prongs. I don't know how to love someone and have them love me back. Sure I've been in a relationship before but none of them meant anything. I don't want to hurt him James. I can't do that to him." James laid down next to Sirius and pulled his hands off of his face. Sirius turned his head to look at him.

"I can promise you that Remus doesn't care about any of that. He wants to be with you and he's willing to take whatever risks he has to to get that. Don't push him away because you're afraid of hurting him. You could never hurt him."

"You think so?" Sirius looked up at him. It killed James to see how sad his eyes were. He pulled him into a hug.

"I know Sirius." James let go and got off the bed.

"I'm going to go get Remus and you're going to make up because Peter and I would rather sit here and listen to you two snogging all day than have you be mad at each other." This got a small laugh out of Sirius and James smiled before going to find Remus.

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Sirius was sitting up on his bed when Remus walked in. He looked hesitant, scared the boy would turn away from him and give him the silent treatment again. Neither boy said anything, just stared at each other. Remus cleared his throat.

"James told me what you said." He stepped closer to Sirius' bed, keeping his eyes on the floor. "I just want you to know that none of that matters to me. I don't care if you hurt me and I know there isn't anything you could ever do that would make me hate you anyways. And don't say that you don't know how to love because I don't care about that either. Neither of us knows anything about being in a healthy relationship but that doesn't matter because this could be our first. If that's what you want too."

Remus had made it to the end of Sirius' bed and he looked up at the boy to see a small smile forming on his face. Sirius got off the bed and stood next to Remus, still having to look up at him as he was significantly shorter.

"Are you sure? Because once you have me you can't give me back. Just ask James, he regrets inviting me to sit with you guys all the time." This made Remus laugh even though he knew Sirius was lying (well, about the James part)

"I'm sure"