Why her? |Jude Bellingham x Reader|

9.

~2.34 pm~

I woke up in the middle of the night. My mouth was really dry so I gently got up from the bed and made my way to the kitchen. The girls and I slept in one room together, the guests' room, and the boys slept in Phil's room if I'm not mistaken.

I slowly picked up a cup from the cupboard and held it on the sink. I calmly filled it with water, trying not to make any noise that could wake up the sleepyheads. I chugged the water down and sighed after placing the cup on the sink.

-Y/n?- I desperately turned around to see who it was, worried that I had woke someone up.

-...Jude. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up.- I looked away and sighed once again.

-You didn't wake me up. Don't worry. I havent slept yet.- He said while rubbing his eyes.

-Jude, please go back to bed and try to sleep.- I walked to him and held his hand while pulling him a little towards the kitchen door.

-No, Y/n.. I just wanna stay with you...- He stopped and hugged me tightly. After hearing his low and raspy voice I remembered something.

-How many drinks did you have?- I remembered that the boys had the great idea of drinking beer and other things before and after dinner. They all had a beer at dinner but after playing fifa, once again, they had more and more drinks. At some point of the night, me and the girls went to have fun in the bedroom, talking about boys and things like that, so I didnt know how many drinks they had.

-...not many..-

-Not what I asked.- He gently pulled away and scratched the back of his neck.

- 4..-

-Jude.-

-Alright, alright! I had..about 8 or 9.-

-Jude! Are you kidding me?!- I whisper-shouted at him, trying not to wake the others.

-Im sorry.. We were having fun and..-

-No, you guys should know better, honestly. Of course, now you smell, look and sound drunk. How are you not dead asleep right now?-

-Coffee..–

He shook his head and sighed.
-Since when do you care so much about what I do with my life..?–

–Excuse me? Are we not friends?!–

–Oh is that really what you think?– I stared at him quietly, scared to make a peep. His eyes went dark, just like that time at the party...

–Answer my question, Y/n.– He slowly walked towards me, getting closer and closer. I must admit, I was hella scared.

– J-Jude, stop that..–

–Stop what?– Suddenly, I felt my back hit the wall. I stared up at him until he stopped in front of me.

–After everything I've said and done. You just want to be friends? Y/n, please.. I may be a bit drunk but..I know what I'm doing..– He held my waist gently and pulled me closer. I didn't know what to do. I knew he said he know, but what if he doesnt? I didn't want to take advantage of him because of that. What if he's saying all this but actually he doesn't want anything to do with me? I cant stop overthinking everything right now.

–Jude, I..‐ Before I could continue he pressed his lips against mine, slowly yet roughly. I kissed back, my lips moving at the same rhythm as his. I was still a bit worried and hesitant to continue.

~SMUT WARNING~

–Y/n..I fucking love you so much.– He said inbetween the kisses. My face heated up as I tried to say something back, but I couldn't. I really couldn't. Without a warning, Jude started kissing down to my jawline and to my neck too, leaving wet kisses all over.