Why her? |Jude Bellingham x Reader|

5.

I left the room in tears, I couldn't stand the pressure in there. Jude Bellingham kissed me, the boy who hates me. The boy I rejected when we were younger, but also, the boy who has always defended me... Fuck.

~Jude's POV~

Why did I do that, what's wrong with me? She hates me! I hate hate her.. don't I? Why her...

I left the room and tried to find someone, like Foden or Mason.

–Jude? You alright, mate?– I turned to see Foden with Camila beside me.
–We saw Y/n run past us, what happened?–
I looked down and sighed.

–Nothing...Don't worry, I'll take care of it.– I walked past them and tried to find her as fast as possible, I had to apologise. When I got outside I saw her, hugging her so called friend, Ruben. She wasn't well, I did that to her...

–You.– He pulled away from the hug and stormed towards me.
–WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!?– He tried to push me down to the floor but before he could do so Y/n pulled him back.

~Y/n's POV~

–Rúben, deixa-o estar! (leave him!).– I held him back and he started calming down.

–Hey Y/n, calm your little dog will you?– Jude provoked, he had a little smirk on his face as his eyes didn't leave Rúben's fury.

–Fuck off!– Rúben tried to go back to him but I didn't let him.

–Rúben...não te preocupes, eu trato dele. Por favor, vai-te divertir. (Don't worry, I'll take care of him. Please, just go have fun).– I gently told Rúben, he nodded before taking one last glance at Jude and left, walking back to the party.

–Y/n, please let me talk to you for a minute...– He pleaded with a more relaxed face.

–No. You've said and done enough for today, Bellingham. Just go have fun with the rest of your little hoes for tonight, will you? I'm leaving.– I shook my head and headed towards the car park infront of Kylian's house, the one across the street.

–What!? What hoes? Plus, you're not just gonna take a car and leave!– He stated as he followed behind me.

–No, I'm just going to sit here and wait for everyone to return. Furthermore, the guys who are driving aren't drinking anyways so it wont take long till they get bored.– I sat myself down on the sidewalk and stared down at my phone.

–Fuck Y/n, I'm not gonna let you stay out here by yourself. Are you crazy?– He yelled, making me kind of flinch but
not reply.

He sighed.

–Im sorry, Y/n. I'm just sorry for what I did. I didn't want to... Well, I did, but I didn't want to make you uncomfortable. I like you, Y/n..–

–No! That's not it though, is it! You've just always wanted to have the achievement of having a kiss from "Trent's ex" just to have that over him! Isn't that right?!– He stood quietly, staring down at me as I screamed at him. –Isn't it?!–

–No, Y/n...You have to believe me. That's definitely not the reason why...why I did that.–

–Then whats the reason? Let's hear it.– I got up and stood face to face with him.
–Its because you hate me, right? You just want to piss me off and get a way to have something over me!–

–No! I don't...I mean. Shut up, just stop trying to put words in my mouth that I have never said before!– He sighed and shook his head.

–But you do hate me! You always show that you hate me! Then again, why are you still here?! Why are you still trying?!–