My Carnal Desire (+18 SMUT) |BTS JIMIN FF|

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I came home around 5 in the afternoon. Jeong is supposed to come over tonight, and I actually can not wait. I am so horny right now, that I can barely hold on.

I'm just gonna take a shower, calm down a little. I ran the water really hot until the steam filled the bathroom. I started putting on some shower bath, which is really foamy. I put it all over my body, gently rubbing it in. I was just rubbing it on my shoulders and my neck, then I came down to me breasts. As the foamy gel was starting to cover my chest, I rubbed gently on my nipple.

I have been extremely frustrated to the point that I moaned at touching myself. That is all I've been doing for months now. He won't touch me, so I need to do it myself. My hand travelled down my stomach and I softly passed my fingers between my legs. It felt like a little tiny heartbeat was constantly going off down there. I gasped as my finger grazed over my clit.

This feels amazing. But I am saving myself for later. I need to stop.

It took a lot of resolve to finish my shower without making myself finish. But I am waiting for Jeong.

It felt like days waiting or him to ring the bell.

'Hi ba-' I cut him off before he ever said hello, pulling him roughly to kiss him, right at the door. I hugged him tightly around the neck, pulling on his shirt so hard I heard seams rip somewhere. I moaned into his mouth, grabbing a handful of his hair.

He tried to fight me off, pushing me away, chuckling, 'Neya, what's gotten into you?' He asks

'I want you. Take me.' I throw myself at him again, pulling him inside. He pushed the doors closed behind him and I pushed him against the door, kissing him still.

He still wasn't kissing me with the same ferocity as I was kissing him. He was only holding me around my waist, very gently, while I was pulling on him like my life depended on him.

'Ne-ya.' He mumbled my name between the kisses, pulling himself away

'Hm?' I hum, going to his neck to kiss him there. I start pulling up his shirt, trying to get him naked, but he keeps pulling it down.

He pushes me off again 'Not today, I'm tired.' He says

I sigh heavily looking at him. 'Are you serious?' I ask, pissed off. I even wore sexy lingerie and waited for him in it.

'I'm exhausted.' He sighs

'You have been exhausted. For months.' I reply, pulling him in again.

He pecks me lightly and pushes himself off. Again. 'That's not true.' He says

'Jeong. It's been over 6 months since you even touched me. Please. I want you.' I grope him, running my hand over his crotch. It was disappointing to see that he wasn't even excited. All of my desire melted away in a second

'I'm sorry, I've just been really busy, and it's been stressful.' He gently cups my cheek.

'Jeong, do you still find me attractive?' I ask him after a minute of just looking at him. I felt so useless. I was standing in front of him in lacy red lingerie, throwing myself at him, and he couldn't be less interested.

'Of course, how could I not?' He cups both sides of my face, taking a step towards me. 'You are beautiful.'

'But do you find me attractive?' I repeat. 'Because I don't know if it's me or you.' I explain

'Don't be silly.' He chuckles

'I don't find this funny Jeong. You are showing zero interest. I would rather you be honest with me, and tell me if you don't want me, than me throwing myself at you without a point.' It makes me feel like shit. I'm doing everything I can and he acts like I've done nothing at all.