My Carnal Desire (+18 SMUT) |BTS JIMIN FF|

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Jeong
Are you still upset?

I can't ignore him anymore. Not after what I've done. I need to tell him.

Me
No. Do you wanna come over?

Jeong
I'll be there in an hour

Ugh. This is going to be a nightmare. We've been together for 6 years. This is not how I imagined things to end. I didn't imagine things ending at all. I wanted to marry him. Maybe I still do. Maybe we just need to sort out the little problem we've got, and I can keep Jimin a secret.

About an hour later, I heard a light knocking on my door. I opened it, and Jeong came in, hugging me tightly.
'I've missed you so much.' He says

'I missed you too. I'm sorry for ignoring you. I was just... frustrated, I guess.' Well, I was. I'm not anymore, that's for sure.

'I was thinking about what you said last time. I didn't realize how much time passed. Without us doing anything, you know.' He says

'Okay. And did you come to any ideas or conclusions?' I ask, wondering if we can solve it

'I'm gonna take a holiday, get some rest. That should reset me, and we should go back to normal.' He smiles, taking my hand

'When?' I ask

'Next month.' He smiles

'Jeong, it's already been almost 7 months, and now you want me to wait for another?' I ask in disbelief

'It's only a few weeks.' He says

'I still don't get it. You can't be that tired for months. Every single day. 24/7. I work too. I get tired, too. And I still want you. How is it any different for you?' I'm annoyed again

'I don't know. It just is. Give me a month, please. If it doesn't work, I will seek medical help.' He says

'Why don't you just take viagra?' I ask, just to see his reaction

'I'm not putting drugs in myself just so I could have sex!' He sounds offended

'It was just a suggestion.' I sigh quietly

'It feels like you only want me for sex.' He now tries to turn it on me

'Um, sorry, what?' He did not just say that. 'We've been together for 6 years. Do you seriously think I'm with you only for that? Or did you skip the part where I'm with you even though we don't have any?!' What an idiot.

He looked down, realising he didn't have much else to argue with. He sighs deeply. 'So what now? Do we break up just because we don't have sex?' He looks at me

'As much as you hate to admit it, sex is a big part of a relationship. And when you don't get that kind of attention from the person you love, it makes it harder for both of you. So we will give this waiting thing a try. And then, if it doesn't work, we will see.' I tell him, not stuttering once.

'Okay. Let's do that then.' His smile was sour, so I didn't want to add salt to the wound. If after a month it's still the same, I'll tell him about Jimin and use it as an excuse to break up. Jesus, I made a mess

'Let's just have some dinner.'

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'So, you didn't tell him?' Ji asks as we're preparing for the new model to come in.

'No.' I sigh. 'I'll save it as a breakup excuse if I need it.'

'That makes no friggin sense.' She raises an eyebrow at me