My Carnal Desire (+18 SMUT) |BTS JIMIN FF|

15

I got to work a lot happier than I usually do. It feels unreal that I've woken up next to Jimin.
I know I shouldn't feel that happy about it, but I do. Just being with him makes me happy.

I was sitting in my office, drawing up designs that I had stored in my head. But not I have a lot more. I keep designing clothes that I can imagine Jimin in.

'Jesus, what's going on with you?' Ji scared the life out of me. I didn't notice she had come in

'Oh, Ji. Sorry I didn't hear you.' I say

'I can see that.' She says quietly, looking around where I left a ton of sketches and drawings. I put them into sections to make it easy for myself

'What's with the drawing? You've designed enough for 2 years.' She asks, still looking around

'Just had a bunch of things in my head and needed to put them on paper before I lose them.' I say as I'm currently drawing a design for a coat. It's a knee-long green coat. Thick strap around. Double-breasted. Golden ornaments.

'What inspired you to do much? I don't think I've ever seen you draw this much.' She asks as she picks up a few drawings, looking through them

'I don't know. I just have a lot of energy today. Might as well use it.' I keep answering without looking up from my drawing

'Have you talked to Jeong yet?'

'Tonight. He's coming over to mine.' I mumble

'And Jimin?' She asks. I pressed the pencil a bit too hard into the paper, and the tip broke off, making me pause

'What with him?' I ask, finally looking up at her

'I was just wondering if you guys did anything after that time...' She trails off

'No. Why are you asking? Are you trying to go for him?' I teased her, going back to my drawing after I sharpened the pencil

'Well, yeah, actually.' Another shock.

'I wouldn't recommend that.' I chuckle. I tried to seem as nonchalant as possible. But I wasn't, at all. I didn't want her to go after him.

'Why? Do you think I don't have a shot?' She asks

'He is too busy. He said it himself.' I mumble. I'm not able to concentrate on this anymore, but I'm scribbling around, pretending to do it.

'I'm still going to give it a try. I won't know unless I try.' She sighs lightly

I give her a sour smile, 'Good luck then.'

I can't tell her not to do it. I don't have an excuse. And if I tell her, she will ask for every detail. I can only hope Jimin turns her down. I don't want the two of them together. I don't want anyone with him. Shit. I am jealous.

'Thanks. I'll ask him for his number next time I see him.' She is all excited. All I can do is fake a smile at her.

There goes all of my energy and will to work. I love Ji, but she really is dense at times. Not even on purpose.

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Jeong
I'll be at yours in 15

Finally, It's happening. I just need to get this over with as soon as possible. He is really not a bad person. He is just a bad boyfriend. For a long time now, I've tried to push forward and thought to myself it will get better. We love each other. We've been together a long time. But it only got worse. I'm not asking for 24/7 attention, but I am getting none. It used to hurt. Now I'm not even bothered when I don't see him for days. And being with Jimin most of the time made me want so many things. Like Jimin.