My Carnal Desire (+18 SMUT) |BTS JIMIN FF|

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'So tell me about yourself.' He asks, then slurps on some noodles

'You see, now that you put me on the spot, I don't know what to say.' I chuckle

'Well, I know absolutely nothing besides that you're a designer and that you're horny 24/7.' He teases

'That about sums me up.' I joke along. 'And, honestly, I'm only horny around you. I'm not like this all the time.'

'Ah, I see.' He smirks. 'What else?'

'Aish. It's like in grade school when you have to write an essay about yourself.' I made him chuckle.
'Right. I'm 26. I graduated college for fashion design in Seoul. I've been in a relationship for 6 years and will soon be free. I've been working in the same company for 4 years. Ji is my best friend and a coworker. Lately, I've been seeing someone who is extremely hot and fulfills all of my sexual desires. That's been pretty fun.' I see him smile at the last part. 'Oh, and my blood type is AB.' I add, joking. 'Your turn.'

'I'm also 26. Graduated from Seoul Law. I've obviously followed my college degree as I'm now a model. I'm not in a relationship as I've recently gotten out of one and have had enough for a while. And I'm also seeing someone on occasion. She is pretty crazy in bed and loves pretty much everything. A dream girl, you could say. And my blood type is A.' He laughs a little

'Wait, so much to unpack. You graduated law? And you came out of a relationship?' I am a bit shocked

'I figured you'd pick up on the relationship part.' He chuckles. 'Yeah. She cheated. 2 years of my life down the drain. And yes. I wanted to be a lawyer.' He smiles

I completely ignored the lawyer part. He was cheated on. Why would a woman cheat on him?
'I'm sorry, Jimin.' Now I feel bad for prying. 'I think you just dodged a bullet there. It's her loss for doing something so stupid.'

'I'm not fazed by it anymore. If she cheats, she's not worth it even a little bit. I know I dodged a bullet, but being cheated on is an awful feeling. Cheaters are the worst.' He sighs after his little rant, staring at the ground in front of him

It's not like I'm not aware of the fact that cheating is the worst thing you could do to a person, but then there is another fact. And it's that I am one myself. I've been cheating on Jeong for a while now.
I'm not making excuses and saying that what I'm doing is okay. I could have just broken up with him and do what I want. Instead, I kept him kind of on the side while I was with Jimin at any given chance. Even today. I told Jeong I'm working when I'm with Jimin.

And the fact that Jimin said it cuts deep like a knife. Especially since he's the one I'm cheating with. Does this mean he hates me in a way? Because I'm a cheater? Does he just see me as some kind of a whore?
I don't want him to see me that way or to think of me like that.

I wasn't sure what to say to that. I just felt like I got punched in the gut. For the better part of my relationship with Jeong, I was made to feel unwanted. Jimin made me feel the exact opposite. So, to hear those words from his mouth, I feel like I've just been used and made fun of. I feel like crying.

He must have noticed me go silent. I was looking down at my hand, trying to hold back my tears.

'Neya, are you alright?' He asks. I didn't answer him, so he tried to hold my hand.
As soon as he touched me, I jerked it away.

'Neya, did I do something? Did I say-' He gasped loudly. He probably only now realised what he said.

He slid his hands under my jaw, lifting my face up in a hurry. 'Neya, look at me, please. Neya.'  I look at him, feeling the tears swelling up in my eyes.
'No, no, no, please. That's not what I meant!' He is panicking