The Damage Was Done

Chapter 21

After working for about 10 minutes Axel speaks up again "come on just tell me what happened" I look up from my book and shake my head "nothing, I'm fine" I say I'm not gonna tell the truth I have 2 options and I'm gonna take the one with the least amount of people who get hurt because of me.

"Don't do that" he says grabbing my hand but I flinch away "do what" I say calmly "you know exactly what, talk to me tell me what's going on" he says pushing for an answer that I can't give him "nothing's going on, I came here to do the assignment, so let's do the assignment" I say trying to make him drop the whole thing.

"Come on Louise, don't do this, don't push me away" he says grabbing my hands I stand up and turn away from him "I'm not pushing you away" I say quietly, to be fair he's right it's best if he hates me because it was bound to happen sooner or later.

"Yes you are" he raise his voice a little and I tense my shoulders "Louise look at me" he says but I stay where I am I can hear him slowly walking towards me "Louise" he says as he gently turns me around and grabs my face between his hands "talk to me" he says looking into my eyes, as mine drift towards his lips "I don't have anything to say" I say about to pull away when his lips connect with mine.

His soft lips move in sync with mine as my hands go up to his neck, he parts his mouth sticking his tongue out and I do the same my hand pulling his head closer, until reality kicks in I can't be doing this, I pull away and turn away from him, my head running a million thoughts, that wasn't supposed to happen i was meant to be making him hate me.

I slowly turn around and look at him he has a smile on his face, shit, I don't know what to say so I say the only thing that came to mind "that was a mistake" he looks me in the eyes and takes a step towards me "bullshit" he says, I look away and stare at the ground "that shouldn't have happened" I say more to myself than him "you can't tell me that it didn't mean anything to you because I know it did" he says taking another step closer.

"It was a mistake" I say again trying to make him believe it, he needs to believe it "you don't mean that" he says taking another step "yes I do" I say taking a step back as he takes another forward "no you don't you're trying to push me away for some reason I don't understand" he says grabbing my hand in his and pulling me into him wrapping his arms around me, I want to say that he doesn't know me but to tell the truth he's knows more about me than most.

"Talk to me" he says again, I shake my head tears are starting to form in my eyes again I hate this as soon as something good happens my life gets flipped upside down, he pulls away lifting my head up to look him in the eyes "you can trust me, just tell me what's going on" he says wiping a tear that fell out of my eyes "I can't" I say in a whisper.

"You can't what tell me or trust me" he says, I want to say the it's first one I want to tell him what's going on but I can't because he'll convince me to stay and I can't have anyone get hurt because of me, before I can answer his question my phone rings.

I wipe the tears that started falling without permission and pick up my phone "hey, what's up" I ask Ryder "I'm outside" he says and I look out the window to see his car "ok I'll be out in a minute" I say hanging up the phone.

"I've gotta go" I say going to grab my stuff "please don't leave like this" he says, I look up at him and give him a small sad smile "I'm sorry" I say before walking out the door and into Ryder's car.

"What happened to your eye?" He asks when I get in, I look over at him and he has a worried look in his eyes "I'm ok Ry, just ran into someone from school who wasn't too happy with me" I lie and turn to look out the window.