The Damage Was Done

Chapter 27

After a while Felix fell asleep from exhaustion. He laid on my bed tucked into my side. I was scared to let him go.

I reached over to grab the letter of the table beside and opened careful not to wake Felix up beside me opening the letter I sighed and started reading.

Hey Axel,
If you're reading this they gave you the letter
I don't really know what to write there's a lot I want to to tell you and I'm sorry for leaving but it's better if I'm not around everything I seem to touch turns bad and I couldn't risk you or anyone else getting hurt because of me and my mistakes, I bet you're probably blaming yourself right now please don't, you couldn't have known no one could, I wanted it so no one would know it would be easier on everyone, and I'm sorry for getting close to you I shouldn't have done that because by me being close to you has put you in danger and I couldn't live with myself if anything happened to you because of me because as much as I hate to admit it you were right that kiss did mean something, and you're not that bad of a person, I also probably shouldn't have told you any of that you were also right about knowing me if im honest in this past week i think you are one of the only people who actually knows me and the shit ive been through anyway I want you to know that wherever I am I will be safe and so will everyone else, can you also please look after my mother and brother I know how they are and tell Felix that I'm sorry and it's alright to hate me for running I deserve, also take care of yourself, find someone else whose better for you they'll love you trust me. I don't want to say goodbye but I have to so I'm very sorry please don't look for me.
Goodbye Asshat, I'll miss you
Louise xx

Looking down at the writing I realise she doesn't plan on coming back, which makes a tear fall down my face. She has to come back. I need her to come back.

I reread the writing paying attention to every word. What does she mean by that being close had put me in danger, I reread it again when I went over those 5 words my heart stopped.

She said that the kiss meant something to her, but then she told me I should find someone else who is better for me. How am I supposed to do that? Anyone else isn't Louise.

I place the letter on the table beside me and stare at the ceiling. She told me not to look for her but I can't do that I have to look for her, I need to.

I'll go to a bus stop tomorrow and see if any of the bus drivers recognise her and then I'll go from there, I don't care if she told me not to look for her.

I'm going to find you Louise Anderson, even if it's the last thing I do.