I hate him // Minsung [Eng]

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Lee Know p.o.v.

Our tour started 3 days ago and tonight there will be the last Seoul concert. After that, we will go to Tokyo and then to LA. I can't deny that I'm so excited.

We are in the dressing room now, getting ready for the show. Chan is silent, like always before concerts. He likes to relax and focus, he said once. The total opposite of Han and Changbin, that are singing and screaming like they were the only two in the entire building. 

I'm quietly eating a pudding. I was on a too strict diet before the comeback so I was really craving one today.

After I finish it, trying to ignore the rappers' noises, I see Jeongin lying on the couch next to me.

What a perfect chance for a butt hunter!

I slap him with my left hand but he doesn't even faze, he keeps watching a Youtube video on his phone. He's so used to my slaps, I have to change my prey.

I glance at Han. He has stopped to sing and he is watching me with a strange look in the eyes.

Lately he seems upset everytime I slap someone. I like to think that he's jealous. And I can't stop thinking how slapping his cute little bum could be.

He tries to hold my gaze, while drinking from a bottle of water. I wave him over, confusing him even more.

«What?» he asks, annoyed, without moving an inch.

«Come here, Prince» I order.

He blushes hard and he starts coughing, the water must have gone the wrong way.

«Don't call me like that!» he manages to exclaim, as soon as the cough subsides. His round wide eyes stare at me, he's angry. 

«Why? Do you prefer 'jagi'?» I ask, playing dumb.

He slams the bottle on the table, attracting the gazes of the other members, and approaches me.

«'Prince' is the name for my partner to call me and I'm not your jagi, so stop being a jerk!»

Ops, he's really pissed this time.

«Han!» Chan scolds him. He really hates listening to quarrels before a show, that's not good for the members mood.

«Why do you always scold me?!» Han raises his voice to Chan too, his eyes are watering, «He's provoking me all the time! He doesn't respect me at all!» he adds, pointing at me.

I feel a pang in my heart. Why did he say I don't respect him? I was just kidding...    

Chan turns to me, he's really mad:

«Lee Know, how old are you? Could you please stop making him angry?»

He's right. We are spoiling the mood of everybody before a concert. To be more precise, I am spoiling everyone's mood.

Chan helped me through every difficult moment, he welcomed me into the group as if I was a younger brother, even though he is only a year older than me. How can I do this to him?

I've always wanted him to let me help him, to give me a piece of the weight he carries on his shoulders every day. But I'm demonstrating that I'm not reliable right now.

I'm a bad member for everyone if I start a fight before a concert just for fun. 

«I'm sorry.» I say watching Chan with serious eyes. He sighs and my mortified face seems to be enough for him.

Then I turns to Han. I'm a bad hyung if I push him in this direction and if I make him feel disrespected.

«I didn't mean to disrespect you. Believe me, Han.» I start, crossing his eyes, «I was just joking, but I crossed the line.»