How I Feel

WoW

You tell me to come outside to talk,

I take a deep breath to calm my nerves.

I think to myself, 'Oh God what now?'

You sit on the bench,

With a cold, heartless expression on your face.

I sit next to you,

And the negotiating begins...

After you practically demand that,

I tell Mr. Lamers a lie,

I decide I've had enough.

I've had enough of your

Manipulation, demands,

Hurtful comments, hatred, 

and fake caring.

I tell you to

"Shut up and listen to me for once!!!"

It's like no matter how loud i scream,

You'll never care anyways.

This is it, you finally broke me.

ME! Who never cries and even less for you!

You finally shattered my shell.

Are you happy now?

Are you happy that you're finding a reason to hate my fucking guts?

Are you happy that you get to put the blame on me?

You're trying to put words in my mouth,

and say that I changed my story...

But sorry Bitch, I told you the same thing then that i did today!

So fuck you!

You're the reason why I'm depressed!

You're the reason why I have to go to Dr. Godfrey!!

You're the fucking reason why I ********!

And to think that you are the ONE person,

That is supposed to love me,

That's just really fucked up.

"You played games with the wrong person...

It's to late...

I have suffered enough defending this family, it's a losing battle...!

Your mom & her family sealed our fate, as your grandmother did to her husband & family.

Daisy made a cake your mom & her family put the frosting & then eat it piece by piece...

It's really over!!!

The ramifications are felt already & it's only the beginning...

God bless you!

And Sidney You just became 18 in my book...

So hurry-up & find your life & get going..."

This is what I get after so much work and fucking hurting.

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 Btw: Yeah it stings, every moment but what ever...