𝕁𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕆𝕓𝕤𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟 | Doors AU

Chapter 9 - Drastic, Dumb Actions - Fem POV

Once it finished, I tasted the dark fluid and grimaced in disgust. "Mhm.. it's perfect.. just how I like it" I smiled softly, placing it onto one of the many empty cups placed across from me.

"I'm gonna go check on Y/N now! Bye Figure!"

With that, I got back up and headed in the direction of Y/N's apartment once again. Once I made it to the apartment, I knocked on the door softly. No reply. I frowned as I realised she might have gone to sleep.. Maybe I shouldn't wait up for her to come back? Whatever..

When I least expected it, Other Me came again. "Heyyy! Jacky!! Listen, I saw you and Y/N fuck, it was great. But more importantly.. you gotta explain for Rush's corpse. She found it."

"Fuck.. thanks for telling me."

With that, she disappeared.

Jack entered his room, tired as ever and hoping to see Y/N.

"Y/N!" He called out.

No response.

He walked inside his room, just wanting to lie down, when he saw her sobbing on the floor. "Y/N.. what happened? Are you ok!?" he ran towards her, putting a hand on her shoulder.
As soon as she heard him say her name, she burst into tears.

She took his hand off of her shoulder but continued crying. Jack could tell something was wrong, so he grabbed her face with both hands and wiped some of her tears away.
"What is it Y/N!? What did I do!?" he questioned frantically.

He tried to act oblivious.

"I.. I don't need you right now, Jack.." She said through tears.

"What do you mean you don't need me? That's not true at all, Y/N!!!" He exclaimed.

Y/N looked down at the floor before speaking again, her voice barely above a whisper.

"Jack. This relationship between us is a joke.. there's no way we could be together. Y-you can't keep me here against my will.." Y/N said as she violently threw Jack's soft hands off of her and turned away from him, her eyes filling with fresh tears.

Jack stood frozen in shock.

"You found the closet. Didn't you?" A smile crept its way onto Jack's face. "Well, if you're interested, the unfortunate motherfucker in there was, Rush. Since you've seen him now, don't you think he deserves some company? He seems lonely.. in that closet all by himself.." Jack started to giggle hysterically after he finished talking.

At this moment, Y/N snapped out of her stupor and turned around to look at Jack. Her face was covered with tears, and she glared at Jack.

"How long do you plan to keep me here, Jack? You're a monster.. a cruel, heartless psychopath.." Y/N spat, glaring at Jack with pure hatred.

Her words stabbed Jack deep into his soul. It was as if someone had pulled out his heart and stomped on it repeatedly while yelling. It hurt. But, Jack refused to show emotion. He knew he wasn't going to get anywhere by acting weak. "I did so much for you, Y/N! I carved your name into my arm, I got rid of your boyfriend so we could be together, I gave you clothes and food, I protected you, I helped you, I love you.."

Y/N remained silent.

After a few minutes, Jack decided to speak up again. "Seems like I don't have another choice.." he smirked sinisterly. He began slowly moving closer towards Y/N until he had reached her ear. "If I can't have you, nobody can.."

Jack struck Y/N across the face, knocking her out cold.

He instantly became consumed with guilt.

"I.. I just.. hurt Y/N.." he whispered, horrified of what he had done. "This isn't real.. I'm dreaming.. this can't actually be happening..."
Jack fell backwards onto the ground, completely disoriented. The only thought that could register was that he had to wake himself up.

But he couldn't. This was real. He really was a monster.. He wanted to cry out in pain and sorrow, but somehow the urge wasn't allowed to take form within him. So he instead tried everything to escape. Anything to get away from this horrible reality he was trapped in. He tried biting his hand. Nothing worked. He tried hitting his head against a wall. Again, nothing worked.

He looked around frantically, and stopped when his eyes focused on a razor blade that was lying next to him. With shaking hands, he picked it up and pressed it against his wrist, trying to create an open wound. He felt something warm trickle down his skin as he drew blood from his wrist. And he kept bleeding. He kept drawing more blood. And more. And more. He began to giggle as he watched blood drip down his skin from a tiny cut. He giggled more hysterically as blood kept dripping down his arm from a small cut. He was having fun, and that only made him laugh harder. Eventually though, all the blood stopped flowing from his wrist. It just lay limp there, dripping.

But, Jack wasn't satisfied. He didn't want his fun to end.. and it was distracting him from what he'd done. He began to cut deeper into his wrist, trying to draw more blood.
And the blood flowed out faster this time. And then even quicker..

"I'm.. A.. Monster.. And.. Monsters.. Don't.. Deserve.. Nice.. Things.." He mumbled in between cuts.

And it never stopped. He kept cutting his wrist until all the veins were visible. There was more blood than he thought possible coming from him.

He threw the razor aside, snapping out of his trance.

The cut had nearly reached the bone by now, and still it wouldn't stop pouring. He looked down at his wrist again, feeling sick to his stomach.

More blood poured. More blood. It went on for forever until finally, his body refused to leak out any more.

Jack sat there, staring blankly at his own hand. Then slowly moved his gaze to the blade sitting beside him. The metal was coated in red, and it looked very sharp.
But Jack didn't feel anything anymore..

The guilt of hurting Y/N returned full force now that he realised exactly what he had done..

It dawned on him. He wasn't dreaming anymore, it wasn't just a nightmare.. it was all real.. a nightmare he couldn't wake up from.

He managed to pull himself up, and sobbed as he walked over to Y/N's unconscious body.. he placed his palm on hers, and closed his eyes, willing her to wake up. His breathing became fast as he cried even more loudly. But she stayed asleep, not even noticing her lover was holding her in his arms, crying and calling her name.

"Wake up, please.. Wake up.. Please.. Please..." Jack begged quietly, trying hard to stop himself from crying as the pain in his heart grew. "Please... Y/N... Please. Wake up...."

Y/N didn't respond. Jack sobbed louder and tighter. As he held his girlfriend close, he could hear her faint breathing from her chest, the sound almost making him fall into despair, thinking of all the things he had done. The way he used her... The pain he inflicted on her.. The fear in her eyes whenever he was near..

He was really a monster.. a sadist.. a devil..

He picked Y/N up and cradled her as he walked towards his bed, laying her down on it gently.

His cuts didn't matter right now. They had been shallow compared to what he had done, and they would heal eventually. Right now, he was most concerned about what he had done to her.

Jack had to prevent Y/N from trying to escape again.. he couldn't lose her.. Not now.. Not ever.. he needed to keep her with him for life.. No one else could ever make him happy like she did. She made him stronger, happier, more loved, better. She gave him all these new things to strive for, to live for. All because of her. And it was all thanks to Y/N.