𝕁𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕆𝕓𝕤𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟 | Doors AU

Chapter 10 - Waking Up - Fem POV

"Wake up, please.. Wake up.. Please.. Please..." Jack begged quietly, trying hard to stop himself from crying as the pain in his heart grew. "Please... Y/N... Please. Wake up...."

Y/N didn't respond. Jack sobbed louder and tighter. As he held his girlfriend close, he could hear her faint breathing from her chest, the sound almost making him fall into despair, thinking of all the things he had done. The way he used her... The pain he inflicted on her.. The fear in her eyes whenever he was near..

He was really a monster.. a sadist.. a devil..

He picked Y/N up and cradled her as he walked towards his bed, laying her down on it gently.

His cuts didn't matter right now. They had been shallow compared to what he had done, and they would heal eventually. Right now, he was most concerned about what he had done to her.

Jack had to prevent Y/N from trying to escape again.. he couldn't lose her.. Not now.. Not ever.. he needed to keep her with him for life.. No one else could ever make him happy like she did. She made him stronger, happier, more loved, better. She gave him all these new things to strive for, to live for. All because of her. And it was all thanks to Y/N. Jack had grown so fond of her that he'd rather die than lose her again.

He kissed Y/N on her forehead once before crawling back into bed. He buried himself underneath the blanket, not wanting to leave Y/N alone..

Or maybe he should've just her go.. Maybe that would be better.. Maybe it would be easier for both of them if she was gone.. If she'd never know what happened to him.. If she never felt that pain.. If she never knew how much he cared for her..
But no. It wasn't worth it. He loved Y/N..

But they'd had sex, bathed together.. eaten together..

"Life's about letting go right..?
Just let her go, Jack.. You're strong enough to survive without her, aren't you..?
Yes.. but I won't survive if I don't have her. I won't survive."

Jack woke up slowly and carefully. He needed to sort out his arm before anything else..

Jack pulled himself together and started trudging to GL's room. As soon as he got there, he saw them asleep on a bed, her hair spread around her head like a halo.. A small smile tugged at his lips as he realized how adorable she was. Her sleeping form looked completely relaxed.

Jack sat down by her side and placed his bloody hand on hers, startling her and waking her up. "Jack! What's wrong?! Why are you bleeding?! Are you okay?! Oh my god, you're bleeding!" she exclaimed as she grabbed his hand.

She looked at the cut carefully, her fingers gently brushing over the skin. She looked back up at him sadly. "Oh, Jack.. I love you so much... I was so scared you were going to hurt yourself..." she said softly, pulling her face closer to his. She placed a soft kiss on his cheek and continued. "Are you hurt anywhere else besides your wrist? Your arm is really deep, come here.."

GL chanted an ancient  spell as she helped him move his arm. Once the cut stopped bleeding, she cleaned the cut, wrapped it securely with gauze, then covered it with bandages until it was hidden away under a dark cloth. GL was worried though.. It was getting pretty bad, and Jack was still shaking.

"Come to me if anything else hurts, okay?"

"Yeah I will.." Jack mumbled.

Jack sprinted back to his room in record time, falling onto his bed exhausted as soon as he closed the door behind him. He tried to take a deep breath but failed miserably. Tears streamed down his face as he buried his head into the pillow, hoping he could get some sleep despite everything that was happening. He stared at Y/N for the last time before he planned to release her from this nightmare that was their relationship.

There was nothing left. His girlfriend was gone. He was broken beyond repair and no matter how much he loved her, he wouldn't be able to fix it.. There was only one solution. Jack would end this.. For good.
After a few minutes, he managed to calm his racing heartbeat and sleep.

Jack awoke to a gentle shaking. "Jack.. Jack wake up.. It's late.." the voice whispered softly, causing Jack to look up groggily. He blinked a few times, trying to clear his vision, then he looked, and saw Y/N. She looked tired. Jack remembered what had happened..
"Where'd you go..?" he muttered softly, his tone laced with guilt. He reached a bloodied hand up to stroke her cheek. "You must hate me..."

"Listen.. Y/N.." His eyes began to well up with tears. "I think it's time you leave.. this relationship.. You deserve someone who can treat you right, not someone who doesn't give two shits about you.." Jack paused briefly. "It kills me.. Knowing that I caused you pain... That you were afraid of me. I'm sorry. I wish I could take away all that pain.. I'm sorry I murdered your boyfriend.." He hung his head and closed his eyes tightly.. "I'm sorry. So so very sorry..."

Y/N sighed heavily, placing a hand on Jack's shoulder to comfort him. Jack immediately moved closer to her, nuzzling her neck as tears dripped off of his face onto hers. "Do.. do you really want me to leave you? Do you really mean it, Jack?" Y/N asked quietly.

"Would you really be alright with me leaving? With being alone..?" Her voice quivered slightly.

"It's for the better.."

"I'll help you gather all your shit.." Jack sighed.

The two got up and packed without exchanging a single word to eachother. Jack was happy for Y/N to leave. It meant she wouldn't be hurt anymore.

Jack and Y/N walked out of his room. The smell of fresh air was nice.. atleast compared to the smell of death..

Y/N and Jack exchanged a hug. "Get away from this hellhole.. Y/N."

Jack watched as she ran with her bag all the way to the entrance.

Jack went back into his room and collapsed. He was tired. Tired of everything.

And that marks the end of this shitty book. Thanks for all the support you all gave me, I appreciate it a lot.