There's something about laying in your bed at night that gets you going. suddenly you have all these feelings coming out and you're completely taken aback by it all. I really need to pull myself together because I'm so tired of crying before I go to bed. You feel like shit in the morning and you look like shit. I can't even tell you the last time I went to bed feeling like happy.. Right now everything just sucks... It sucks a lot.
All I really want to do is hug my cat but my teddy bear will be just as good, he's worked for the past 6 or 7 years with making me feel better.
Maybe I'll listen to the fairy dance song.. That keeps me calmed down *sigh* I don't know why I put myself through this ship of bullshit.
Anyways I guess I'll try and sleep.
Night.
