Wow it's been a while.. Normally I wouldn't post any of the things I write when I'm having when of those stupid little moment kinda things but ai felt like writing is one out.
Dear----
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You know.. You hear about all these crazy, heart breaking love stories and while yes, they can be extremely sad I can't help but wish I'd be able to have one. I want the big fight but I want the beautiful make up. And I want all the sweet little moments as well as the moments where you don't understand where your life is heading together.
Sometimes I have those feelings. Part of them because I'm alone, I feel everything alone and even though I say I like being on my own I can see other people spending their life with someone and even though they may only be in high school I think it's... Crazy but wonderful how you're spending some of the most important years of your life with this other person. This person who has thoughts, feelings and habits. But the thing is we enjoy spending time with them because you know just maybe you do love them, every single thing and you may feel unsure, confused and scared but the more you think about it the easier it is, the way it flows off you tongue and you can hear the sound of it and maybe she's/he's perfect and while you might not find yourself perfect you know that he/she does and together that's one big perfect.
Everyone wants that one big, fat perfect and maybe sometimes we want it so badly we try and patch up the imperfect but it doesn't work. We can spend forever wanting, needing, looking for that perfect but when you think
"Well forget it." Then do. Give it time, you can't expect perfectness to bust down your bedroom door demanding to be felt/seen. It has to be ready for you and trust me its worth the wait because what's more perfect then finding someone who finds your flaws perfect?And you maybe a not so perfect person in their own eyes but the most beautiful thing in yours ??
Now that's just fucking
Perfect.
Makayla.
