CUPID'S CLUB :: manifest ♡

back again

hey guys, long time no see haha!!

first of all, happy new year! this year is going to be a great year for me, for I have decided to take matters in my own hands and stop procrastinating. I'm in my self-help healing girl boss era.

Now as you can tell I have been on a hiatus for around one month, I honestly don't really have a reason tbh. I just got caught up with school and kind of put manifesting on the side for a while. During that time I haven't manifested anything, except good grades, but honestly that seems to be just a continuous thing that I do subconsciously.

Anyways! I have taken advantage of the motivation I got watching people make vision boards for 2023 and decided I want to set goals for myself this year. Usually, I find the idea of new year's resolutions to be redundant, because if you really want to make a change, you should immediately take action towards that change rather than keep pushing it off with the excuse that "it's not part of your resolutions" or "it's not new years yet".

I have set multiple goals for myself, and I made sure they would make me focus on multiple aspects of my life. So be it academics, health, language learning, religion, etc.

I have also concluded that I am way too anxious and stressed for my own good, to the point that its causing me health problems, so to reduce the flow of thoughts in my head I have started journaling them. My goal is to journal daily, and I always start off by going over what went well, what could have gone better, and what I am grateful for, then I just do a brain dump of any recurring thoughts. Gratitude is also something I want to work on, in the sense that it allows me to be more humble but also helps me keep track of all my achievements in life.

Now I started journaling 3 days ago, and I can't lie it has triggered even more anxious thoughts for me. I have been dealing with lots of loneliness since my best friend moved away 4 months ago, and I keep having thoughts that I am unable to accept things and move on while she is living her best life. I know these thoughts go completely against my positive, good vibes only mentality/image but this is a real part of me that I just can't hide.

This is kind of a reason why I haven't been active, because the more time I spent on my phone, the more anxiety I had, so I just put things down for a while.

ANYWAYS!

These are all besides the point. Journaling has helped me organize my thoughts and I now have new desires I want to manifest, so I will be going over them in my next chapter, which should come really soon.

I'm really glad to be back guys. This chapter is a little peek into my genuine thoughts, it should help you to realize that you do not have to constantly be happy or have high vibrations to manifest your desires. Thanks for reading, see ya !!