"Oh dear god, answer my calls! you don't even answer my texts," I said, frustration filled my body as I sat down on my bed.
"I don't understand...you know what, I- oh Cory you're here," I got up and walked up to him, he was standing in the corner of the room, I hugged him while caressing his fluffy hair.
"I'm here, love," he said with a smile that always made me have butterflies "come sit here," I said while making my way to the bed "What should we do now?" he said with questioning look on his face, "rest for a bit then go for a walk, what do you say?" I asked. "Sounds good to me, love," he answered with a smile.
We talked for a bit until it got quiet.
"I can't imagine my life without you, Cory, absolutely, I'm not joking you mean the world to me... I'm happy that you're here with me," I said out of the blue. He looked at me, his head on my lap. I gave him a warm smile, his gaze softened as he said, "me too, love."
After a while, we made our way to the door for a walk, "let's sit there! At that bench, it's empty," I took his hand and ran to sit there while laughing.
I sat there followed by him. I talked to him about how my day has passed, "Today was really tiring, my family kept making me do stuff to prevent me from talking to myself and doing weird stuff. I don't understand what they mean, I mean, I don't talk to myself, right?" I scoffed, and turned to face him only to notice a worried look on his face, his expression changed, why? did I say something wrong?
"Hey, hey don't worry, it's okay. I'm not mad they are just exaggerating nothing else," I chuckled. I looked up and I found people looking at me weirdly "what's wrong with her?" , "has she lost her mind", "what a weirdo." , "I feel bad for her actually."
"Cory, I don't feel comfortable here can we go back to my house now?" I said concerned, he nodded and I took him by his hand and left the garden.
We got back to the house and I dragged him to living room to watch something. I sighed "what should we watch?" I said to myself while scrolling through the movies and series.
"y/n, sweetie..." said my mom while covering her mouth, "What's the matter, mom?" I asked"Sweetheart, you need to go to sleep please. It breaks my heart seeing you like this," said my mom as she left.
Time has passed and I felt sleepy as I put my head on Cory's shoulders. I suddenly slipped and fell on the couch and continued sleeping. I don't understand, where is he? I can't feel his presence beside me.
My eyes were so heavy to the point I couldn't open them. Sleep got the best of me. The next morning, I woke up, Cory wasn't by my side anymore. I got up and went to wash my face. I lifted my head to look at myself in the mirror, "Cory? Were you here all the time, love?" I said turning my head to look at him. He looked at me pitifully but I choose to ignore it because all I want is him now. "Is this a good morning?" he said. I chuckled, he then opened widely his arm for me to hug him.
"Let's go, I want to eat my breakfast then we can go out because I have nothing to do here-" as I was holding his hand, I felt like he was slipping away. I turned around. I found no one, "Cory?" I opened the door widely, he wasn't there.
I fell down on my knees, I felt weak. The realisation hit me. I broke down and started yelling, and screaming, "Cory, please I want you," I said gripping tight on my shirt where my heart is. The reality hurts a lot.
"Sweetie! Sweetie, it's okay, it's okay. Calm down, Cory is here," mom was trying to comfort me, "Stop lying! I want him now! Where is he!" I kept yelling, my mom caressed my cheeks and hugged me tightly.
My vision darkened, I felt dizzy. My muscles felt heavy. All I remember is my mom crying and hugging me.
I woke up, where am i? I wondered. In a hospital? I thought to myself, "Baby you're up," said my mom who was holding my hand In hers. "What happened?" I asked "Well you were crying over Cory, you know... who died a year ago in that fatal car accident and you fell unconscious. That's all that happened," she said, getting up "I'll go bring you a cup of hot chocolate," I nodded my head and looked at the window besides my bed.
Died? that's not true he's alive. He can't be dead. He was with me just the other days. I said to myself as I felt tears running down my face. He's actually dead, the only truth I couldn't believe. I was fighting to hold on and clinging to just one more day to be with him. I kept imagining his existence with me the whole time. Time did erase you from me, but it didn't erase us. Every night I dream you're still here with me. The ghost by my side was you, it was so perfectly clear but when I awake from my imagination you'll disappear... That's why I couldn't and didn't wake up, I was lost from the start when I lost you. It breaks my heart knowing that our love turned to ashes, I'd die to be where you are and I even tried to be where you are, knowing that I'd lose myself if I did. I didn't want to lose you but I have to accept this sad truth.
I gritted my teeth tightly. I have to move on. After crying silently, I wiped my tears and took the hot chocolate mom gave me.
It's been 2 years, and I finally moved on. I'm living a normal life now, not saying that I forgot about Cory but just that I accepted the fact that he died and I couldn't see him anymore.
