My ray of sunshine

Chapter 1-secret love

Max

The feeling when u gorge out someone's eyes, priceless i know mostly after seeing that bitch with your future husband.As i closed in on Ivan touching my future man like they a match made in heaven i snapped i stood up with my pencil in hand and, boom i woke up."morning Brian" i said.Brian was my bestfriend from when i was in middle school.He is as per now the only living person who knows im gay.we live in the same cause neither of us can afford a 1 bed dorm."I had the worst dream yet" i have been having nightmares but this one was byfar the worst "Ivan that hoe in the same class as me, you know the one i told u about,he was seducing my man". "And who's your man again??" he asked. Sometimes i dont even know why we became friend with Brian in the first place.We met when we were both in 4th grade when he found me crying in the bathrooms and he kissed me on the chick, which is when i discovered that i was Gay{we dated for a while and he later in 7th grade found out he didn't have feeling for guys}.From when we broke up we decided to keep it as friends.......As i walked from Mr Dom's boring calculus class, i heard Ivan ask Ray's bestfriend{aka my future husband's nossy ass friend who always gave me the stank eye}"do you think i can get it down with Ray anytime soon", and that, that is when i lost it "you bitch ass hoe thinkingyou can i, quote'get it down with my future man', do you have any fucking shame you slat." as i walked\broke the ground\there was a pin drop silence as everyone stared at me in disbelive, which just happened to make me more pissed, i pounced on that bitch and wopped his ass, as we rolled in the ground, our AP english teacher came and gave us detention{the fuck who still gives detention in senior year high school}.....As i sat in detention, constantly sizing Ivan and giving him the stank eye as he most gently and seductively corresed the chair. I started judging and asking myself why all this flirting and hot guy act come so easily to him and not to me."aaah what the fuck stop grinding yourself on the damn chair you slut"i said."what's your deal with Ray, you 2 together or something".What the hell is wrong with me, if Ray only knew i pounded this guy's ass only because i have some intense dreams with him, i would come out as the desperate type of person and that is the last impression i want to give to Ray.Thinking back on why i beat up Ivan i have no good explanation, mostly for a person like me who just wants his ass deeply pounded by this hunk of a man, this greek god living among men..... {simp breath} Ray.I cant picture a world without him. like really without Ray i wouldn't, have an instagram{which is how i stalk Ray and create thirst trap edits of him,this guy looks good even in the weirdest posses, and trust me i would know what weird is i'm the type of person who uses a magnifying glass to look at photos of a guy i have only spoken to 6 words and counting.I always get nervous around Ray i've only spoken to him once and messed that up by saying 'Hi hottie.... i mean hi Ray'......As i walked in through the corridoors of our school i couldn't help but notice everyone staring at me.kill me, god's about to teach me a lesson for lying yesterday,i'm having a panic attack ,the love of my life is meters away from me and all i can do is stare while my brain does backflips in my head, i cannot think, all i can see is him. A world with only me and him. "max...MAX {he says louder}."yess" is all i manage to say without breaking eye contact.Its now 7, 7 words i have ever said to him."thanks for what you did yesterday, i can show you how gratefull i am for getting that slut of my back, he's been trying to get his way with me for so long, meet me tonight at the old school bulding tonight, ok"."k" i manage to murmble.The day goes by really slowly, i can't get Ray's words of my mind, and those words might as well be the best words i have ever heard since i was brought into this cruel world looking like something that was puked out.His voice not too deep,but not too girly.it was just perfect, no he was just perfect he wore a blue shirt today which perfectly matches the pair of dreamy,deep blue eyes he had, he had his black majestic hair neatly jelled{i knew he jelled his hair because i saw his stack of jell while i happenned to stamble into one of his pictures, or not} but all i know is he was perfect, he even smelled just like perfection....I don't know what Ray meant by 'tonight ' but all i do know is that im not waiting for no tonight im leaving right now{desclaimer it's at 4:30 pm}. I'm finally here ,where the guy i'd blindly obey asked me to be, at the old school building.