when the pain is too much to bear (Fantastic Beast OC tome 1)

The after

The next day.

Leta and Theseus stayed all night, officially for my protection. Visitors are not allowed at night, but Thomas can justify that. I have never been alone, the idea is unbearable now. I have been allowed out. I have to rest, that's an order, from Thomas.

— Your flat is in a bad state. You can't live there. Theseus told me.

— Did you go there?

— No, I had a report.

— I still can't get used to you being a division head.

— You're coming to our house. Leta declares categorically.

— Thank you. I need some stuff.

— I don't know if going back is a good idea," says Thomas, exhausted by his shift.

— I have to go back. Thom's, go home and get some sleep, you need it.

— I .... he yawned, which gave him away.

— Go to sleep.

— Okay. I'll come back this afternoon. If you need anything, send an owl.

— See you this afternoon, Thom's. I say smiling at him.

I look at Leta and Theseus:

— Don't you two have work to do?

— Leta, no. I do, but .... I need to see the flat too. Then I'll go back," he responds, feeling guilty.

— You can go to work now.

— I'll take you to your apartment to see it and leave you with Leta.

I'm so lucky to have them. We got out of saint mongoose and went to my flat. I start to get scared. I don't want to go back, but it's just to get some things.

— Monsieur Dragonneau. Greeted Oliver, Theseus' colleague, guarding.

— Fletcher.

We went in and everything was turned upside down. Those cogniarts! My wand, my things ! My gaze is drew to the cabinet where he had thrown me. There's blood, my blood and the remains of my wand. I pick it up.

— What .... worries Theseus.

— For the record... it's my wand," I respond sadly, a little teary-eyed as I pointed to the two ends. I am going to get some clothes.

Leta accompanies me into the room. Theseus looked at Leta and then at the place.

— I hate them! I hate them!" I explode to Leta as I took some things.

I took some clothes, the photo albums, Emily's frame and me. I have to send her an owl. I stuffed everything into a suitcase. The picture of Mum and Dad is smash. Leta threw a reparo without me having to ask. I look at my room, never again, I'm not living here. It's too quiet and mark by them. They turned everything upside down while I was there, paralyzed !

— I have everything I need. I'll come back for the rest. I says, angrily.

— Are you all right?" worries Leta.

— I want to destroy them. All this for potions! Potions ?" I burst out. My flat! My wand ! For potions !

It's stupid, yes, just an object, but my wand, damn it. I can get another one, but it's not the same ! Leta looked at me, sympathetic. I went out with my suitcase and joined Theseus.

- Thank you, I have everything.

We went out and I wanted to close the door by reflex, but I didn't have the damn key!

- I just want to leave," I snap.

Theseus said softly to me:

— I have to go back to work, but I'll be back tonight, not late. Leta stays with you.

— Thank you.

The tears came and they both hugged me.

— It's okay. It's just... it's life. Go to work, Theseus," I respond, drying my tears.

He looks at me and his fiancé, both tense .

— See you tonight, Rosa. See you tonight, my love.

He left, without meaning to. I look at Leta and said:

— I don't think I'll be able to Apparate.

— I know. I wouldn't have let you anyway. We go without magic.

We arrived at their flat and Leta offers me a tea. I rested for a while and then came out of my room.

— Leta, would you accompany me to buy another wand?

— Of course! Do you feel up to it now?

— Yes.

— No transplanting, not hurt. We're going in powdered cheminette.

We went down the side path. I was chosen by another wand. I miss my old one. I learned my magic at Hogwarts with it. Ten inches, flexible, chestnut, the same white river monster thorn heart as my old one. We went out:

— I wish that we could fix broken wands. I declare, sadly.

— Do you want to go home?

I saw Fleury and Bott and hesitated.

— Fleury and Bott? asked Leta, smiling.

— Let's go !

I went straight to the new items, nothing interesting. I explored the shelves I know now, just to smell the good books. I came out with nothing, but I felt better. Here, as in all bookshops, I almost always feel better. We went back. A few hours later, Thomas came by. He was his usual, but more worried and protective self, to put it mildly.

— How are you today ?" he asks as he sat down beside me.

— I'm doing better.

— I will check the bandage.

— Thom's," I say, with a slight grumble, this is cute but annoying.

— You know I have to look.

— You're not at work anymore, you know, I tease him.

— Come here please. I agree and he watch. How was your day?

— I went to buy a new wand and check the books. I say, leaving him to it.

— You were supposed to rest," he scold me.

— I rested, but I needed another wand.

— The wound is fine. You know you need to rest, seriously. Promise me that.

— Two days.

— Three days.

— Two.

— We shouldn't be negotiating about this, you know that. He respond, serious.

— Two, that's all you'll get," I accept, stubborn as I am, more than him.

— Two then," he agrees with a sigh. I know you'll rest, since you promised now. He smiles a little.

I know he is worried. This is adorable, but... Leta asks to him:

— Are you staying with us tonight for dinner?

— Yes, he looks at me, I am keeping an eye on you.

— Thomas ! If you say that again, I... I'm not made of sugar!" I snap, starting to get really annoyed fast. I can take care of myself! My friends look at me surprise. Thom's worried, saying softly:

— I know you're not made of sugar. I just want you to take care of yourself.

— I know," I sat more calmly, breathing. I'm sorry. I'm going to go lie down for a bit.

I woke up a little bit later and went out for dinner. It is good to have the four of us together. Thomas left me more alone, which I appreciate. After the meal, we had a game of wizard's chess ! It is great to be right there playing !