Three days later, St Mangouste, psychology department
— I don't want to go! Please, I want to go at the appartement! I ask, very anxious to Thomas.
— Rosa, Rosa, looks at me.
I did it, listening to him.
— Breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe. He made me do it.
— I can't go, I just can't. I reply afterwards, a little calmer, but my heart still racing.
— You can! You can! You're so strong!
— No, I'm not. I can't!
He sat me down, facing me calmly, like a lighthouse in a storm.
— It's your panic talking. You don't have to talk about it now. You can say anything until you're ready. You can even be silent. Mary will help. 1 hour! Just trust me on this.
— I .... trust you completely. I drop.
He gave me a hug, I took a bit of his calm, another hug from Leta, more love. Thomas is calm, way calmer than me. I just need to be there. I knock and went in, nervous, but I did it. Mary greets me, smiling. I realize she'd heard everything, oh no ! It's very awkward, we sometimes talk at lunch, in the break rooms and now it's awkward.
— I'm sorry I'm late," I apologize, my hands sweaty and my heart still racing.
An hour later, it .... happened. I don't know how I feel. We haven't talked about it, not about this, but... I can't. I just can't. The tears came, uncontrollable.
Thomas came to me immediately and offer me a hug. I ran into his arms and cry. He consoles me and helps me calm down.
— Please don't go," I beg.
— I won't, I promise. I'll take you back to the flat. Do you want to apparate or walk? he asked softly.
— Apparate.
— Will you let me take care of it?
— Yes.
He take my hand, which immediately calms me down a bit. I sat down on the sofa and he joins me next to me. I put my head on him, even though I shouldn't have done so, for comfort, and he let me. He gently pulled the blanket over me, making me smile. It's okay now, Thomas is soothing. I yawn several times before falling asleep on top of him.
'' Petrificus totalus !" I hear.
No ! No ! I wake up in a panic, on the sofa. Thomas saw my anxiety rising, came over to me and gave me a cuddle. He is perfect, Thomas and the hug. He repeated, it's over, you're safe. I finally calmed down. I don't live it.
— It's all right," he says, once we were together on the sofa, him soft and adorable. You're with me, you're safe. I won't let anything, or anyone hurt you.
My heart race, not with panic, but with... now is not the time! I felt myself blush, he can't see my face. I breathe, putting myself back in the present, putting him out of my thoughts.
— Thank you for this. I breathe grateful, my trembling calming, taking in his calm and his presence.
— Of course. I'm here for whatever you need. You just have to tell me.
How can he be so perfect ? No, no, friend, friend, just friend. Thinking about him is better than freaking out, but... it's not right. I want to kiss him but we're just friends ! He looked at me, with his beautiful green eyes. My heart races against my will. I look away and breathe. It's hot. Think of a neutral place. The color blue; don't go towards that voice, not with him there.
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when the pain is too much to bear (Fantastic Beast OC tome 1)
Fanfiction1926, Angleterre Divisions rise between the wizards. Grindelwald is back and rising. Rosa lives her life, between her work at St. Mungo's and her friends Thomas, Theseus and Leta. A little bubble in the midst of war.... But one evening will change...