Tokyo Revengers Oneshots

I'm trying my hardest 🥮Sano Manjiro (Mikey)🥮

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It's not a oneshot without some angst in it >:) But then again, it'll somehow drive itself to utter chaos or major fluff near the ending cause this story is as unstable as my mental health HAHAHAAH- Sorry-

Anyways, 

⚠️ This oneshot will contain ⚠️

▪︎Self-harm
▪︎Angst
▪︎Self-Gaslighting
▪︎Some fluff:')

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Third person's pov

Why is everything bad happening to me? Why is it that...all the people I love is getting hurt and- 

Mikey thought as he was stood in front of the bathroom mirror, wondering, pondering, why are all these horrible things happening to his friends, family, himself. He never thought that everything would lead up to where they were now.

He created the gang to protect them. To protect the innocent and yet, the people he loves, the people he cares for, all of them, they got hurt in the midst of all that. The worse that came to them was death. Shinichiro, Baji and now Emma. He didn't understand, he couldn't understand why.

Where or when did it go wrong? All he wanted to do was to protect them and yet he failed to that. To the point where his own best friend, his heart, his partner, Ryuguji Ken, blamed it on him.

He felt so useless, distraught, a failure of a brother, a failure of a friend. He couldn't protect them at all. He couldn't prevent the accidents that had happened. Mikey's mind started to spiral deep into the void, the void that he promised himself to never fall into. To never give in to the dark impulse. He promised himself after that incident with Haruchiyo.

Haruchiyo, now known as Sanzu, his childhood friend. Oh, how he felt horrible- for not being a better friend, for not noticing his struggles. He felt regret. Anytime he saw the scars that he made on Sanzu's mouth, his stomach dropped, and he always had to look away as all he felt was pain, guilt, regret. Because of him, Sanzu's relationship with his siblings deteriorated and even claimed himself as a single child. It was Mikey's fault that the Akashi siblings now have an unstable relationship. It was Mikey's fault that led Sanzu to the person he was now. He had apologized to Sanzu countless of times, but the boy shrugged it off, saying that he deserved it, albeit there are times that he stayed silent and ignored the male. Mikey knew Sanzu was a very loyal person. But he didn't know if the pretty male hated him or is scared of him to the point of his undying loyalty. Mikey was confused. He didn't know what to do. 

'Pathetic'

A voice taunted.

'Worthless. How could you call yourself a leader? A friend?'

It provoked Mikey more and more. 

'What a useless human being. Couldn't even protect the people you love. How utterly disappointing.'

Mikey tried to mute out those voices, but it seemed to resist. It kept on fueling the rage in him. The hate he feels towards himself. 

'You are a disgrace, a disappointment. You tarnished the Sano family.'

Mikey struggled, slowly looking up at his reflection, there he saw, himself. But his reflection seemed different. He saw a dark presence circulating around him. The eyes of his reflection were staring back at him, with a grin spread on its face. Taunting Mikey even more until he loses it. Until the young male breaks and let the thoughts seep into him. The negativity, the dark thoughts started to grow more and more inside of him.