My Bodyguard

Chapter 13

I grabbed a coke and sat in the corner as the gala started. My eyes searching for Manik for hours. It has been hours since the gala began and nothing.

"Manik" I whispered a few minutes later seeing him

I got up and walked over to him

"Princess" he bowed with a smile making me tear up

"Can we talk" I asked

"About what your highness"

I grabbed his arm pulling him with me, it was hard to im not going to lie because he is so freeing heavy

I pulled him in my room and locked the door huffin, I pushed him on the bed and sat in his lap

"I am sorry, I am so sorry for the stupid words I spoke, for saying you are jsut a bodyguard, for taking jack's side over you, for everything. Please Manik, please jus talk to me"

"What should I talk about with you huh? I am hurt and I am breaking from within"

"I can fix the cracks, please just say you forgive me, please let me make it up to you please" I whispered holding his face

"No" he siad

"Please Manik"

"You had promised you would not let another man touch you"

"I know, he didn't kiss me, he didn't have sex with me, nothing of that sort happened. I talked to him about someone I liked"

"Oh quit it, he was laying on your back, you wrapped your arms around his neck and said maybe, you said fucking maybe. You let him sleep in your room and you chose to believe him over me"

"Okay relax breath, he was lying on my back, I did wrap my arms around him and I did say maybe but I was trying to escape from everything, I thought if I got close to him I would forget what we shared in Paris. I was stressed and anxious all night. He slept in my room but not on my bed, he slept the couch. I asked you not to be rude because I saw how angry you were the day before. I saw the footage I know you didn't go on his family"

"Fucking hell, no I didn't, I wouldn't go on anyone's family and you should have believed me over anyone in this god dman world" he yelled

"I know, it's my mistake. I am sorry"

"What the hell am I supposed to do with this sorry? I don't care if he slept on the couch, i know the shit that went in my head. I know how I felt when his arms wrapped around your waist. Ahhh just go, I don't want to talk to you" he said letting me on my feet waling out of my room

he was hurt, he is possessive for me, I could tell in his eyes. He refused to look me in the eye.

I got up and quickly changed into shorts and a t shirt. I hopped over to the gala and sneaked a pastry out of there with a spoon, I walked to Manik's room.

He wasn't on his bed, but I could hear the shower in the bathroom so I came in and locked the door. I texted my brother letting him know I am with Manik in his room.

I sat down on his bed with my legs up in a criss cross apple sauce position waiting for him. He walked out a few minutes later in sweats and a t shirt, his hair was wet.

"Manik" I whispered

He looked up at me but didn't say anything to me

He got rid of his wet towel and started fixing his hair in front of the dresser

"Manik come sit with me" I siad

"No" he said

"Please, you said you are hurt"

"I am not hurt, I am broken. You broke me"

I teared up hearing him say that, it hurt to know that my anxiousness and stupidity has put his feelings for me at risk and caused me to break his heart

"Manik"

"Don't" he siad

"I am sorry Manik, I was anxious and you know how messed up I am"

"Its all fine, you owe me no explanation" he said

"Please just sit with me for a few minutes"

"Why" he asked

"Please" I whispered grabbing his arm

He sat in front of me.

"Sit here please" I said asking him to sit resting his back on the head rest

He moved sitting beside me, I got up and sat in between his legs facing him

"I understand that you don't like me right now, you don't want to see me. I totally get that I hurt you and I broke you. trust me I feel hurt too, not as much as you but I am. Now that I hear your point of you and try to figure out what I would have felt if I saw a girl's arm around you, I know I fucked up. I know that if I saw that I would have been worse than anything"

"This, whatever you are doing, whatever you are saying does nothing"

"Okay and thats understood, but will you be the bigger person jsut for a minute and listen"

"Isn't that what im doing" he asked

I nodded wiping my tears, the fear of losing him hurt me a lot, it was freaking me out.

I know I had said what Manik and I shared would be purely physical but it wasn't and im not going to be stupid anymore and deny it.

"I will do anything, I promise anything to make it up to you. Please Manik don't leave me like this please" I whispered trying not to break down

"There is nothing that can fix this" he said

The tears I was holding in didn't work anymore, I felt my cheek getting wet.

"Please Manik, please don't do this"

"Don't do what" he asked

"Please don't say that nothing can fix it please. I know I messed up big time, please forgive me im sorry" I cried

"Every time I look at you I see his hands on you, I see him close to you"

"At least tell me how I can make it up to you, how I could lessen that pain, that hurt" I asked

"You can't, there is nothing that you can do that will make it hurt any less"

I nodded knowing he is probably right and that if roles were reversed I would have lashed out, I would have screamed and yelled but he didn't. He sat here with me becasue I wanted to talk.

I got off his bed and placed the pastry in front of him

"Cabir told me it is your parent's death anniversary, I dont' know umm what you do but I know that everyone loves pastry and they did too from what I can remember from our childhood. Its your mom's favourite kind if im not wrong. I hurt people Manik and I have realized that, all I do is hurt the ones that mean something to me and I hurt you"

i took a deep breath in and wiped my tears.

"You are right, I may not be able to do anything that can make it hurt any less but the thing that I can do is tell you how sorry I am for my words and my actions. Goodnight Manik" I whispered the last part walking out of his room into mine

I locked the door and fell on the bed, my head circled with a shit ton of things, all those memories of him and I were playing like a movie in my head

I laid there just looking up at the ceiling but at one point I started to lose it, I was hyperventilating, but I knew if I went to Manik he will take care of me but it will hurt him seeing me so I laid there trying to catch my breath.