My Bodyguard

Chapter 15

Manik's pov

It had been 5 days since I last saw her, she hadn't stepped out of her room. Every single day when I sent in food from the chef, he would come back with the full plate so she was barely eating

Every night a guard slid in a note under my door and I read them every night, no one has ever written me anything and for her to do so was really sweet.

It wasn't that I didn't wanna forgive her, fuck, I had already forgiven her but I wasn't able to get that image out of my head, I jsut couldn't not until I realized something

I realized that I was being stupid for not forgiving her, she matters to me and she matters to me so much for me to keep pulling away and be away from me

She realized her mistake and she apologized not just once but multiple times, she kept apologizing to me and honestly I just want to walk in her room and hold her in my arms and tell her how sorry I am for behaving like a jerk too

So that's what I did, I walked towards her room when I heard something falling making me run in, I heard the shower and saw her sitting in the shower fully clothed.

When I closed the shower I realized she was in cold water, when she changed and came out she was limping.

Her face wasn't so bright and her nose wasn't shining like it used to, her pouty lips weren't bright pink anymore adn it was all my fault.

I ran out to get her some food and medicine which she ate with no complaints. She brushed when I went to go put the dishes back

"Forgive me please" she cried

"I forgive you nandini" I said but she didn't seem convinced

"Don't say it just becasue, please tell how I can make an effort to earn your forgiveness"

"You don't need to, your notes were enough" I said

"I am sorry"

"Nandini I said I forgive you, please stop crying"

She moved her hand to my t shirt holding it in her fist so gently

"I didn't meant to hurt you, I was going to come see you but when he came in, I didn't hug him becasue I liked him like that, it was a friendly hug. I behaved like a bitch when I wrapped my arms around him or let him touch me but I swear he didn't touch em like you have. He did lay on me but it was platonic from my side, I don't know about him but from me it was. He slept on the couch. I used bad words and yelled at you when I shouldn't have. I made a mistake, a horrible one but you mean so much to me that I am willing to do anything to earn your forgiveness" he blurt out

I know she didn't mean to hurt me, I know she was anxious and I saw how empty and lost her face looked when he was close to her

"I swear on my life I wouldn't have kissed him or let him kiss me regardless of if you walked in or not. I had promised you no other men and I stick to that but you are right I did let him touch me and that was wrong"

I cannot believe that a princess, the princess was crying in front of me for forgiveness, thats what made her my nandini and not jsut a princess

"Shh stop crying and just listen okay"

She nodded wiping her face like an obedient girl

"I was hurt but that was a me problem not a you problem"

"It was a me problem because I did stupid things to hurt you" she said interrupting me

"Shush, no interrupting me"

"Sorry"

"Shhh, whatever happened, happened now there is no need to sulk over it. I just need to ask you some things"

she nodded

"Why did you put in so much efforts and wrote me notes"

"For your forgiveness"

"Why does it matter? I am just. Security detail sure we had a physical thing going on but" I asked

"You matter to me, you know that I don't give two shits about anything but when it comes to you, I feel things for you. Sure ya we started a physical relationship that was amazing but there was more there. Something beyond a physical connection and we both know that. We may not want to admit anything but we have a umm a connection that is beyond our physical one"

She wasn't wrong, I felt a shit load of things for her that and nothing to do with sex

I felt happy when she giggled or laughed when being tickled by me, I frown when she is hurt or is annoyed at something, I smile seeing her smiling. hell, I even cooked food for her in Paris every day, we cooked together while having fun that had nothing to do with the physical connection

We held hands walking to the Eiffel tower, we kissed right under it and that wasn't being attracted to each other because of how we look physically, it felt normal and right.

"Manik my words were wrong, you are not just a security detail, you are more. You are the only person I feel safe and peaceful with, you are the only person who doesn't make me feel disgusted, ashamed and like a whore with. When I am with you I feel like nandini, a simple girl and not the princess that belongs to a royal family. Manik you mean everything to me"

Saying I was overwhelmed would be an understatement because a part of me was over the moon that she feels something for me and the other part of me wondered if her and I could ever be a thing

"Nandini I forgive you"

"But do you really, like are we back to how we were before, like in Paris" she asked tugging on my t shirt

"I don't know what that means" I said not knowing if she is referring to the sex or the cuddling and stuff

"I mean us, are we back to where we were before boarding that flight"

"Im not sure if you mean sex or the other stuff"

"All of it"

"Maybe, I think we have other things we have to discuss first"

"No first say that you are not hurt anymore" she said pouting

God, she is adorable

"I am not hurt anymore, now can we discuss stuff" she nodded