Morgan's Pov| No.2

She Was Me

The sun used to be my best friend
It would give me a sense of
Enlightenment and calmed me down
From the lassos of thoughts
I would get myself into
The vitamin D theory is or was
Real for me
Until I looked in the mirror,
And didn't recognize who I saw
The stranger staring back at me
Furrowed her eyebrows
The same way I did
Because, she too was
Lost for words
The inner love left my body
Like the steam from a hot pot
That was just taken off the stove
The steam escapes from
The kitchen window just like
My key of self righteousness
Because I thought I knew
Who I was
I close my eyes, which are met with
Darkness of the deep, wavering hole
In my chest
That grows each and every day
Full of self hatred and unkind endings
To a story that should be a happy one
I open my eyes to see the shadow
Staring back with was surprises me,
To be hope
Hope of finding the not damaged
And still pure part of my heart and soul
She refuses to believe I am gone
I watch her close her eyes
To go back to the happier times
She whispers to herself
"No Morgan, this cannot be it."
With pursed lips
Scared of what the truth might be
She keeps on searching
The right side of my mouth
Slightly turns upward to know
Someone is rooting for me
She gasps as if she can see the future
And what it might hold for me
There is a light
It can be found on the path
Of self discovery and she
Encourages me to go on it
Here I am, still searching for
The light in certain situations
But I've made a way to learn that
Sunny days can be mine if
I let them
She smiles at me through the mirror
And waves me goodbye
I thank myself for holding me up
Whenever I needed her
Because she was always there
She was my sun in the darkness

*Lets give myself a round of applause for this lengthy poem. 👏🏾 I love 'em I swear I do. They really pull at my mind strings and get me going as far as expressing myself the best way I can.