I see why people choose physical pain over psychological
The thought of a blade going across my skin crosses my mind
Thinking if it will be a good enough distraction
From the torment of my thoughts and emotions
I just can't take it anymore
I try so hard to be the strong woman
My mother raised me to be
But I have to admit, even I have weak moments
And maybe that's ok
But then why is it so painful to accept?
I am disappointed and ashamed of this new revelation I've come upon
I've never been the "suicidal type"
But the
Need
To feel something else other than
My tears running down my face
For the 5th time this week
It's getting harder and harder to push back the way I feel
I can just hear your voice and be ashamed
I am so sorry
*This is really the lowest I've ever been. This was rock bottom for me. I am typing this with a better mindset and environment. But I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared of my own mind and what it could lead me to do. For anyone out there that has ever self-harmed, I understand now. Being so exhausted from the consistent negative thoughts and wanting/needing a distraction, you get desperate (for a lack of a better word). I never understood self harm, especially coming from a person that doesn't like pain. But if it meant a break from the mental torture, I would have done anything.
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Morgan's Pov| No.2
PoetryWe are back! The sequel to my poetry series. The work inside this book now has twice the passion and emotion as the first one. Here is another part of my heart. I hope you enjoy and stay a while! 🌷
