He Was Never Mine [JJK X Reader] 💜

7. I'm Fine 💜

Meanwhile in the concert

JUNGKOOK'S POV:

I still can't believe what just happened. How can she do this to me? I didn't think she is an army, the army would never do that to BTS.

How come she is so skillful in kissing, like she took some training. Wait! What? Am I blushing? I am Jung Shook now when I look at my face in the mirror, in the changing room where members are getting changed for the next part of the concert.

I couldn't process anything, my cheeks became red with the thought of the kiss, I totally forgot about the trouble which I had in my breathing before.

"Jungkook-a, I am not able to see you all this time, I thought you were in the restroom but you weren't. Where were you all this time?

Even if it's only for 5 minutes we were really worried when I couldn't find you", Jimin Hyung said with a worried look on his face and placed his hand on my shoulder, looking straight into my eyes in the mirror, expecting a response as soon as possible.

"Hyung, I am sorry I went to the rest place near the stage for some fresh air. I got overwhelmed with all the emotions because of our performance, fans' screams. We are here after a long time right?", I said with a smile and sounded confident enough to convince him as I am clearly lying and hiding what actually happened.

"Yeah, you are right but please don't be nervous, you are already doing good and will rock it. Now stop being nervous.

I think you have been biting your lips to control yourself from being nervous because of which your lips are swollen, lipstick got smudged.

Get ready soon, we have to go out in a few minutes", Jimin hyung said, he looked really worried and got convinced with whatever I said before leaving.

I couldn't say anything as I was speechless from what I heard from him.

Hyung is right, my lips are swollen. Thank god, he himself covered this for me.

I sometimes feel Jimin hyung is a genius.

I thought mentally but didn't let anyone notice the change in my expressions, I quickly composed myself, got changed and was ready to go out soon.

I shouldn't think about the kiss anymore, it's really distracting me, I should focus on the concert now. I can do this and I will do this.

I mentally encouraged myself, taking a few deep breaths, came out into the concert and started performing.

The concert went well. Members really did a great job, their energy levels are unstoppable.

I didn't think about the kiss for today but not forever.

JUNGKOOK'S POV ends.

Present:

"I have seen disgust, hatred and what not all the negative emotions in his eyes for me. Those doe eyes which I always see in my dreams are now haunting me, Misoo-a.

I feel like a piece of shit. I shouldn't have done that, he thought I kissed him. Who wouldn't?

Of course anyone will think the same. He is right in all aspects, I am the one who took the wrong call" I said and tried to not cry anymore.

"I think I don't deserve to be a doctor. I have wrong instincts. Maybe I am worthless to be a doctor. Maybe I am worthless to live either and maybe I-" I was cut off with a strong slap on my right cheek.

"Don't you dare complete those words, I myself will kill you", Misoo glared at me with red eyes, her right hand still in the air ready to slap me again if I say another word.

"Stop being stupid, can't you see that you saved a life. Keeping a side who is that, you saved a life Hyejin-a, you have done what a doctor is supposed to do in situations like that", she immediately took my hands in her and started comforting me.

"You even did a great job as a human too. You didn't let your emotions take over you, you didn't mix up your personal feelings for him, you handled the situation professionally.

No one knows what happened, until something comes out from his side. You did your best to not let everyone know about his situation.

It could have been the worst if you weren't there at that place at that time.

What if he was passed out and was found really late? What if someone took advantage of his situation? What if a hater is really present there?", She said and realisation hit me hard which made my eyes go wide with shock.

She is right. I can't even continue imaging that situation

I thought and continued listening to her words.

"Why don't you understand and try to be positive about this. Of course his words will hurt you but that doesn't mean he was right.

He didn't know what you have done and may never know. He didn't give you a chance to defend yourself, it's his fault, he just misunderstood everything.

I think he will definitely forget everything and maybe forgot already because he did the remaining concert very well.

Even though my focus was mostly on Tae, I observed everyone this time, Jungkook was really good, he didn't look tired.

He is fine, that's what you wanted right? Then why are you blaming yourself? Don't ever doubt your hard work. You will definitely become a good doctor, I think you already are.

Just try to forget about it but let your emotions out. It's better that way instead of pretending to be strong. I will be there for you. Now take rest and sleep. We can sleep all day tomorrow as well, as it's Sunday.

It's going to be hectic starting next week. Let's take some rest", Misoo tried to convince me in all ways, explaining everything in a positive way. I couldn't say anything as she is also right but still I couldn't find peace.

As I cried a lot, I immediately dozed off and slept for a long time. I didn't get much time to get disturbed as I was asleep all the time on the weekend.

Sometimes sleep is the only solution if you can't do anything.

Our week started and I didn't even realise that two days were already completed. It's Wednesday today, we were very busy in the last 2 days, I didn't get much time to eat or sleep.

Today it's fine, I got some time to sleep which in turn triggered all the emotions I have been trying to hide for two days.

I am really disturbed and couldn't focus on anything. I had my lunch and thought of getting some fresh air by going out.

So I quickly took the permission from my professor for an hour and reached Han river.

Even though it's not our shift timings, we usually stand by as we never know what happens and keep monitoring the patients' condition.

I am currently standing on the Han bridge, staring at the river, thinking and also crying. Everything is happening like a flash, I am not able to do anything, things are getting out of my hands, only work is keeping me sane.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't realise a person was standing beside me, until the person spoke.

"You are crying again like the other day, but why?", I heard a familiar voice with mixed emotions in the voice.

I turned to the person's direction only to see the most familiar face, with lots of questions written on his face, he looked totally confused.

It's Jungkook. Please God not again.