Best Friend

Chapter 25

I felt completely lost.

I had followed Harrison and got into his car, and I had went with him all the way to his hotel room, he had showered me, clothed me and stayed with me, all while I cried in his arms, without both of us saying a word.

Harrison held me, despite not knowing why I was crying for, exhaustion? fear? What I was feeling felt like nothing I had ever experienced before, the only thing I knew was that I couldn't ontrol myself around him anymore.

Like a switch had been flicked, the barrier between him went down, it made me feel completely naked in front of him, emotionally to the point where I didn't know what to say anymore.

"Are you okay now?" He asked, his strong arms still wrapped around me.

I nodded my head, despite my head hurting and my eyes feeling like someone had just poked them with their finger.

"Are you hungry? It's late but I can go out and get something." He asked and I shook my head, not wanting him to leave me.

I didn't need to see his face, as he laid behind me with his legs either side of me as he hugged me to see that he was frowning, and conflicted.

"I think we need to talk Charlotte."

There it was, after what felt like days he finally said the words I didn't want to hear.

Shifting in his hold, I turned around to face him, making him loosen his grip on me.

I looked at him, and hated what I had done to him- still continue to do, I've hurt him multiple times, the first time I did it I felt nothing, because I knew deep down that he was better off without me, he had a cool new life in L.A, I always knew he'd find a woman and get married one day, I accepted that when I cut him out of my life, but now?

Now I see just how much my selfishness had effected him, this wasn't the Harrison I was so used to seeing, in front of me was a man who was ready to give everything up for me, with nothing in return but just myself.

How could I even think of letting him go? This man who loved me.

"I didn't get your texts." I start to say, lowering my head as I rub my forehead. "Until Micah... my coworker told me about roaming... I didn't know that was a thing, I never-"

"Charlotte, roaming doesn't work like that, whenever I tried to contact you, your phone was out of service, just like last time when you cut all communication from me."

I flinched at his words and looked up at him. "That's not how it was, I swear."

Harrison sighed and rubbed his face with both hands. "I don't know what to think anymore, Charlotte." 

"I'm telling you the truth." I say, making him look at me. "I waited for you, I wanted to be with you, I have no reason to leave you Harrison."

His jaw clenched as his eyes slowly left mine to look elsewhere, a awkward silence fills the room.

It feels like I'm drowning, whatever I say he's going to question... is this how we end?

Before we even started...?

"I was going to give up this time, I really was going to let you go." Harrison broke the silence and stared at me, a stoic look on his face.

"You've been the only girl I've ever looked at, I've never been with anyone else but you, fame and money meant nothing to me without you in my life, so when I didn't hear from you... I didn't want to go through that again."

Harrison moved past me and got off the bed, he then walked over to the nightstand where his coat was, I watched him go into his coat pocked and get someone out and grip it in his hands.