9th September 2012
Dear Diary,
People say jealousy in relationship is a dangerous factor. I’ll say, jealousy in friendship is much more than it. Because in relationship, you have certain rights on your partner and can forbid him from mingling with other persons you don’t like. But what rights do we have in friendship?
There is a thin line between friendship and relationship. And this thin line indicates rights and freedom which differentiates both. A person is bound by some limits while being in a relationship, he/she can’t go around talking and chatting freely with people which his/her partner doesn’t like. You have only one with whom you’re in relationship.
But in friendship, you can have many friends. Some close, some less close. You aren’t bound by any limits and can go on making as many friends as you want. Your friend can’t stop you from that even when she’s jealous of it.
And that’s exactly the situation I’m in. He has made many new friends through his basketball team, most of them being seniors which includes both guys and girls. I’m glad that they’re welcoming to him, not like the team leader back in our junior high. I’m glad he’s making new friends and is back to his popular state. I’m glad he’s smiling more and seem to be enjoying their company.
What I’m not glad is about my feelings. My selfish feelings which want him to be by my side only. I know that’d be the same as caging him and I don’t want to do that. But I also can’t stop my jealousy when I see him hanging out with his ‘new friends’ more than me, giving them attention more than me, being nicer to them more than me.
I’m afraid I’d get replaced by them one day…
Love
Your Owner
