21st May 2013
Dear Diary,
I have started going to coaching classes. I have started seeing him often. At first he was shocked that I had joined the classes too, but didn’t feel the need to ask me about it?
But was I to back out of his ignorance? No ways.
I sat on the bench next to his.
There was a time, I used to sit on back bench of him, gazing him from far. Now, I was sitting on the bench next to his and could look directly at him. From where I got so much confidence within 2 years? God knows.
He kept ignoring me as always and I tried to chase after him, making efforts to start a conversation, even if it was in the form of asking doubts from him. What is he angry for? Why is he being cold towards me? What have I done to upset him? If I had done something wrong, he should confront me face to face and even scold or yell at me, I’m fine with it. But what’s with this silent treatment? It’s killing me from inside!
He talks to me now but only to solve doubts when I ask, that’s it. I feel like talking to a teacher, and even teacher responds better than him. I feel like a stranger now, where was the friend who used to make me laugh, make me smile, support me, encourage me? Where was the real ‘him’? Have I lost him forever?
Love
Your Owner
