𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐋 | Neteyam

7

Neteyam

This was the first time she got so jealous, although her outbursts of anger are common. but it was also the first time I gave my attention to another girl. I didn't want anything from her, my heart only belongs to keya. It was my fault, I should have stopped her from attacking this girl but her violence only makes her more attractive than she already is. She doesn't deserve to have the argument with our father. I couldn't control myself and I should take full responsibility for it.

I told her yesterday that we can't be together and I deeply regret it. I thought she wouldn't mind but when i saw her crying herself to sleep outside it broke my heart. it was never my intention to hurt her.

»So what's going on between you and our sister?« asked loak when we were sent out by father.

»Nothing is going on between us.«

»Broo you do know you've been talking about her for years, right?«

What is he talking about, we had never had conversations about her. »What do you mean? I've never talked to you about her.« I stopped and looked at him with a curious look.

»I don't think we've had one conversation in the last three years where you haven't mentioned her.« he answered and patted me on the shoulder.

I didn't meant to fall in love. but now that I have, I can't stay away from her. I'm mesmerized by her smile, by her red eyes, and the way she moves. I'll keep waiting until I can make her mine. And once she is, I'll never let her go. Not even when she begs me to.

❀

Tikeyna

»Look bro, Toruk Makto is finally here!« Lo'ak said excitedly when he saw me coming out.

I giggled and walked over to them, knowing exactly what he wanted again. »You will never give up, right?« i looked him in the eyes with my head tilted to the side.

»Damn right sis, how do you know?«

»Well i will allow you one flight on her tomorrow and after that you'll leave me alone, you agree?«

»Yeah deal!« he said, hugging me before leaving. what the hell was that? Lo'ak just hugged me. that was probably the first and last time in our life. my eywa there are so many weird things happening here lately.

»Did you see that?« I looked at neteyam and he simply nodded before taking my hand and dragging me with him.

»What did I do wrong this time?« i frown and stopped us to wait to his answer.

- »Nothing, you want to go flying with me?« he asked.

I nodded and we start to go towards my toruk and his ikran. i will never be able to say no to flying and he knew that. i just love the feeling of being in the air. I feel so free there, without any problems. especially with torukyna I forget everything else around me.

I started caressing her face, looking deep into her eyes. I haven't seen her for a few days since we left the forest but those few days were more than enough.

❀

The sky is so tragically beautiful. A graveyard of stars. remember the place where i was with kiri? I showed it to him too and he was fascinated by it. I still don't get it how much this place resembles the forest. there were so many beautiful trees and a small lake in the middle.

»Have you ever been in love?« i asked him while we sat against one of the trees and looked into the sky. i told torukyna to stay and let me know if anyone should come after that we went so deep into the forest that we couldn't see her anymore. if anything should happen she will find us.

- »Once.« he whispered.

why didn't they ever got together? neteyam paid no attention to girls but maybe there was one we didn't know about after all, he doesn't have to tell his family everything.

»Why are you still single?« i kept asking.

»I'm saving myself for you, obviously.« he said and I had to hold back a smile that threatened to spread on my lips. I just knew he wasn't serious. i mean he had „rejected" me yesterday.

»Do you want to get mated one day?« i asked him, still looking in the sky at the stars.

- »To you or in general?« he asked.

I looked at him now and playfully nudged his arm »Be serious, 'teyam«

- »Oh, I was being serious, keya.«

My eyes ache with the weight of unshed tears. he was just playing with me and probably wasn't serious about it. »Feel free to go home if you get bored.« i told him and tried to avoid his gaze.

- »You are my home, do you not understand, keya?« he put his hand on my cheek and caressed it gently.

I put my hand around his, looking deep into his eyes. »Then fix it, please.«

- »Fix what?« he whispered.

»Me.« tears started to fall from my eyes. »I'm tired of feeling like i'm fucking crazy. I hurt others to make myself feel better and i know that i'm probably selfish and narcissistic and self destructive but underneath all that deep down i'm a good person. I mean i don't even know why I'm like this and look at my eyes, why are my fucking eyes red? our parents never wanted to give me answers to my questions, they hide things from me that I should know about, none of this makes any sense anymore and now i need you to tell me that i'm a good person neteyam because other people wouldn't understand anything. all they can see is either toruk makto or a red eyed psychopatic and violent alien with five fingers and demon blood, i feel like i'm really falling apart...«

I hate being so vulnerable in front of other people, I'm usually not intimidated by anything but near neteyam it's different. if you would ask me what my biggest weakness would be. I would answer with his name. my biggest and only weakness is neteyam.

He pulled me closer, our noses touched, he carefully wiped the tears from my face with his fingers and I felt his hot breath against my skin.

»I see you.«

My eyes widened, I thought I was trapped in a dream. no one has ever said that to me. for us na'vis it doesn't just mean i see you in front of me. it has a deep meaning for us it's like I see and accept all that you are.

»I see you too 'teyam.« i whispered against his lips.

And so many emotions flood me as he kissed me, wrapping his arms around my waist, i got on his lap and he pressed my body even more against his. excitement, irritation, desire, trepidation. I ran my hands through his hair as our kisses grew deeper, rougher and with more intense, our breathing getting heavier and heavier.