unloved weapon

too ealry

Clay POV

"no I do not care, Karl." i say "you can just listen to him for a minute. maybe he really had a reason to say that." Karl says.

"he did have a reason, but I don't care what reason it was. At least not now.." I mumble "he can't expect me to listen to him right away."

"that's true.." he says "listen to him when you're ready, but don't let it wait too long." with these words he left me alone.

man..

I really liked George, but now he's just an asshole. I mean how could he use me for good grades?!

he's second place, isn't that enough?

I thought I'm starting to get new friends..
I never really had friends. I got along with everyone, but I couldn't call them friends.

they thought I was weird, because I was soo smart and they weren't.
In middle school they started to use me just like George.

for help at school, homework, test every kind of stuff and I believed that they wanted to be my friends.

just like I believed George.

he wasn't the dumb one, I was.
George was the smart one, he acted so nice and lovely that I, Idiot, believed him.

these people make me mad..

I walk into my room and see George sleeping on his bed. I quietly close the door and get bed ready, while trying my best to not wake up George.

but of course I failed.

George is a person who wakes up fast, by the quietest noise.

he stares at me.
"hm?" I make but he says nothing "what are you staring at?" I feel my anger come up.

he looks away from me and stays quiet.

is he still half asleep?
I tilt my head to the side and look at him in confusedness.

he looks back to me.
he doesn't look like he's half asleep, he looks like he woke up ages ago.

"you wanna listen to me now?" he asks with a sleepy voice "no." i keep my eyes on him "then stop staring."

"you were staring first!" i say "because you started to! I could feel your eyes on me." he says "yeah right."

"you're so stupid." he lays down and turns his back to me "who's in first place?" i say before taking my shirt off.

"it's me."

suddenly a pillow gets thrown against my face and i see a mad George looking at me.
"don't throw it at- me." I throw it back at him.

"asshole." he mumbles "oh shut up already!" George starts to get on my nerves "don't play so hurt!"

"you were the one who used me! fucking- fucking bitch." I say "you don't even listen to me!" he shouts.

"why would I?!" I shout "you would act the same if you were in my situation!"
"I wouldn't!", "you would!"

"fuck off already!" he turns his back to me "you fuck off! you were the one talking to me!" I say to him.

"because I'm trying to explain!"
"well you can't explain!" i shout.

"you can't expect me to listen to you straight away!" i say to George "I started to like you, but you- you are so stupid and dumb that you need my help to get first!"

"you became a failure because you didn't try enough-"
"I am not a fucking failure!" he shouts as he stands up.

"put your 'failure' in your asshole!" George shouts "you don't even know if I tried or not! how do you want to open your mouth about anyone without knowing anything!"

his anger slowly fades away as he realised that he lost it.

"you're so annoying." he walks out of our room.

now I'm the one who's fault it is- what?

I open the door and shout after him "you'll get in trouble!" but he ignored that sentence.
lets hope he doesn't leave..

It's dangerous in the night, even for an adult, even for me. I'm mad at him and I hate George, right now.. but I also like him.

he's a great guy- at least I thought so.
I can't just not care about what happens to him.

George POV

as soon as i left the building, i ran into tic.
"Tic?" i say "oh- George, hey." he says "what are you doing outside at this time?" i ask.

"I could ask you the same thing." he smiles
"I'm just chilling, getting some fresh air." i say as I sit down.

"aha. Is there a reason?" he asks, I look at him "no." I look away again "not really."
"mhm.." he quietly makes.

"why are you outside?" i ask "had to smoke one." he mumbles "why? were you stressed again?" I ask.

"a little." he smiles "why? what happened?" I ask the next question "had a small fight with a friend." tic tells me.

"oh.. I'm sure it'll settle down." I lay my hand on his shoulder and it stays quiet.

"Clay somehow found out.." I finally say "found what out?" he asks "that I used him for grades."
"what.. oh." he makes.

"yeah. he's mad at me now and won't let me explain." I look at my feet "at first it was only about the grades, but I slowly started to like him."

"like him?" tic says "in what way?"
"huh? of course friendship way." I say confused "yeah- dumb question." he awkwardly laughs.

"sucks for you.. but I'm sure it'll settle." he smiles "i hope it will." I let a small laugh out
"If not, I'm here." this time he places his hand on my shoulder.

I feel a smile on my face.

"Thanks tic." I say "I'm just being a good friend." he laughs "a really good one." I laugh.

"I think it's better to go back now, it's getting cold." Tic stands up "I can't- I just fought with him again."

"oh-" he makes "well.. you wanna sleep at my place?" he ask "at your place?" I look up to him "the only problem is that we've to share a bed."

"for me it's okay-" tic adds "it's also okay for me." I smile as I stand up.
"nice! lets go to my room." he puts his arm around me.

"pf-"