unloved weapon

answer

I open my eyes and find my arms around George waist while his back is turned to me.

right.. we kissed.

I carefully remove my arm from him and sit myself up before going through my hair.
I look around since our room is pretty bright right now.

It still is cold though.
I lay my hand on George's cheek which is cold, so I move my hand to his neck to check if his body is as cold as his face.

His whole body is cold.

I look at the time.. only 8:34am.
I go under the blanket again and pull George closer to me.

"mhh.." he makes as he slowly turns around, still sleeping, and throws his arms around my neck.

I feel how my cheeks get red and my heart beat gets fast before I cover him with the blanket and close my eyes again.

"fuck clay!" our door gets slammed open by nick "psht-" I say but he's already shushed because of what he's seeing.

"what the fuck happened.." nick says with wide eyes. I look down to George who's slowly opening his eyes.

"whatever- your ex-girlfriend, Zina, is here."

I see how George's eyes flashed open.
"what is she doing here?" I look away from George "I don't know, I just saw her." nick mumbles.

George sits himself up.
"did you guys sleep with each other?" nick asks with no embarrassment.

"what the fuck are you asking- of course we didn't sleep with each other." I say "we just made out." George says while rubbing his eyes.

I feel my cheeks getting red as I look next to me. Isn't he embarrassed?
I look back to nick who has been frozen.

George's eyes wide and he looks at me.
"why did you tell him?" I ask "wait- you remember?" he asks.

"huh- yes, I do?" I look confused at him "you were hoping he doesn't huh?" nick laughs "clay remembers everything when he's drunk."

George's face suddenly gets red like a tomato.
"you knew about the other kiss?" George asks "ayo- the other kiss?!" nick shouts.

"nick get out!" I shout "I gotta tell Karl!" he laughs before running away.

I feel my cheeks getting red again, but when I look to George I see that he's even more red than before.

I sigh.
"yes, I knew about to kiss.." I finally say but George doesn't dare a look to me. "we kissed again yesterday.. why are you so embarrassed now?"

"did we do something worser and I really can't remember..?" I whisper "no- no we did not!" he quickly says.

I feel a smirk on my lips.

"is it because you were sober that night?" I raise an eyebrow as I watch him get more red.

I lay him down before I lay my upper body on his and near my lips to his lips. "you want me to kiss you while the both of us are sober?"

I kiss him without waiting for an answer.
I lay my hand on his cheek and feel how warm it already is.

"you guys kissed-" Karl storms in "oh-" he makes. "alright- get out! enough!" I shout as I get off George and close the door.

i sigh..

12pm

"look who's coming over!" nick whispers to me while all four of us sit on a bench. "save me god!" I whisper.

"hey." Zina smiles "hey.." I don't even look at her. "its nice to see you guys again." she says "mhm.." i look to George who's on his phone.

"how have you been Clay?" she asks me as she tries to move George away from me. "I've been great." I get up as I make her space.

"should we go?" George asks as he comes closer to me and takes my hand. I feel how my cheeks get red.

"you guys a couple?" she suddenly asks and I feel George's eyes on me. "you can answer." I quickly say "somewhere in between."

George starts to pull me away.
"where are we going?" I place my hands around his waist "our room." he mumbles.

"why don't we just stay outside?" I ask "you can stay if you want. I'm sure your ex will be happy about it." he says.

"I'm coming with you." I say while following him.

with an awkward silence we enter our room and just sit there. "soo about the kiss.." George starts as he looks out of the window.

"what about the kiss?" I ask "did you mean it?" he suddenly asks "or did you kiss me just because you were drunk?" he turns to me.

his eyes are filled with sacredness, uncomfortableness and uncertainty.
There's also a shiny bit if hopefulness in them.

"what do you think?" I ask as I sit myself down next to him. His eyes move away from mine and land on my lips.

then he looks up again.

"I don't know." George mumbles "you don't know?" I look at his lips which he just licked.
"do you want to know?" I ask as I lay my hand on his cheek and near myself to his face.

George's eyes are stuck on my lips while I look into his eyes and wait for an answer.
he quietly nods before leaning more in, and I finally put my lips on his.

George immediately moves his head into the kiss and places his hand on my neck.

our kiss isn't rough or fast. its smooth and slow while our body stays contacted, not just our lips.

George moves his head back a little, but doesn't break the kiss, which makes me move more into the kiss.

I slowly open my eyes only to, luckily, see his eyes closed.

I carefully break the kiss and stare at George who's eyes are still closed. I kiss his cheek and see how he opens his eyes again.

"did that answer your question?" I ask "mhm." he makes with red cheeks.